please help
I know this is TOTALLY going to sound like im making excuses for myself but I really don't think that's the case here (for once anyway lol)
I've hit that wall again where I am absolutely tormented and miserable over eating. I feel hungry and starved and want to eat but am anxious and confused about what i could eat and what may lead to a binge. I would definitely consider myself a part of the ED-NOS end of life...I'm usually one extreme or another...
I'm coming off of months of binging and unhealthy eating so my fat self (read:the highest I've ever weighed in my 23 years of life) gets hungry often and easily but I am so desperately trying to restrict or at least not be eating crap. I'm trying to limit myself for now to about 800 cals
Heres the problem: When I go to bed I am STARVING and cannot fall asleep. Like toss and turning for hoursssss cannot fall asleep. So last night, I got home at like 11:30pm, had only consumed 800 calories for the day and had last eaten at 6pm, and was so so so hungry. I was like ok, I'm going to eat something so I can fall asleep tonight but it has to be healthy. So I started with a cup of soup. Which led to 5 spoonfuls of rice. Which led to 2 spoonfuls of peanut butter. Which led to a glass of soy milk. I was trying to eat healthy so that I could stay low w calories and ended up binging on healthy food only to say "fuck it" I might as well eat something good and "start over tomorrow" and went to the deli next door and ate a whole bag of Doriots. FML.
I need some ideas how to not do this. How can I still sleep when I'm restricting or what are some of your fav ideas for good healthy low cal (preferrably also low carb) snacks that are ok to eat late at night? Anything? I'm so frustrated I can't keep living like this it's exhausting.
Thanks in advance :)
I've hit that wall again where I am absolutely tormented and miserable over eating. I feel hungry and starved and want to eat but am anxious and confused about what i could eat and what may lead to a binge. I would definitely consider myself a part of the ED-NOS end of life...I'm usually one extreme or another...
I'm coming off of months of binging and unhealthy eating so my fat self (read:the highest I've ever weighed in my 23 years of life) gets hungry often and easily but I am so desperately trying to restrict or at least not be eating crap. I'm trying to limit myself for now to about 800 cals
Heres the problem: When I go to bed I am STARVING and cannot fall asleep. Like toss and turning for hoursssss cannot fall asleep. So last night, I got home at like 11:30pm, had only consumed 800 calories for the day and had last eaten at 6pm, and was so so so hungry. I was like ok, I'm going to eat something so I can fall asleep tonight but it has to be healthy. So I started with a cup of soup. Which led to 5 spoonfuls of rice. Which led to 2 spoonfuls of peanut butter. Which led to a glass of soy milk. I was trying to eat healthy so that I could stay low w calories and ended up binging on healthy food only to say "fuck it" I might as well eat something good and "start over tomorrow" and went to the deli next door and ate a whole bag of Doriots. FML.
I need some ideas how to not do this. How can I still sleep when I'm restricting or what are some of your fav ideas for good healthy low cal (preferrably also low carb) snacks that are ok to eat late at night? Anything? I'm so frustrated I can't keep living like this it's exhausting.
Thanks in advance :)