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maybe this is important:
object of my affection from spring was in the city this weekend
saw him friday night- one of the most awkward parties of my life
thank science maggie was there with me and i was not alone. we biked up there, stayed for a half hour & left out of discomfort and boredom.
i really did want to see him, felt shitty about leaving without being able to sit and talk to him- just him. it's challenging to understand a person in a very specific context of your life, and when that context changes you're a bit lost. had it been last spring i probably would have kissed him, been close to him. how do you fill that space?
i wanted to see him sunday and asked if he could come down here, on account of my schedule & having already gone up north to see him. he said he needed to stay, and i knew i needed to stay, and so all was left as was.
object of my affection from spring was in the city this weekend
saw him friday night- one of the most awkward parties of my life
thank science maggie was there with me and i was not alone. we biked up there, stayed for a half hour & left out of discomfort and boredom.
i really did want to see him, felt shitty about leaving without being able to sit and talk to him- just him. it's challenging to understand a person in a very specific context of your life, and when that context changes you're a bit lost. had it been last spring i probably would have kissed him, been close to him. how do you fill that space?
i wanted to see him sunday and asked if he could come down here, on account of my schedule & having already gone up north to see him. he said he needed to stay, and i knew i needed to stay, and so all was left as was.