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in case no one understood (tgfj) - thank god for joshua
ok so how do i explain today...
1) not starting school today w/ everyone else - uhh WEIRD.
2) my parents telling me that one of them is moving out.
and then later on acting like everything is fine.
get divorced or shut the fuck up and leave me and my sister out of it.
so joshua spent the afternoon with me.
that is of course after dani treated me to a wonderful lunch.
such a good boyfriend! although its frightening when we STILL show up in matching outfits.. plaid skirts...honestly.
3) so while trying to relax at joshua's
his mom got threatened by her friend's soon to ex.
so i had to keep the 7 year olds upstairs.
pray that josh wouldn't break anything.
and helped letti get ahold of the cops, cps, and attourneys.
thank you christopher hess and his mother.
thank you for wednesday regular's al & greg.
i am taking letti to the courthouse on wednesday.
also i get to have lunch with papa john on wednesday.
so josh helped me, and i got to help his family.
that makes me feel good inside.
i love helping, solving, fixing things.
and i'm tired of playing ring around the rosies.
i thought time would help, but i think it did more damage than anything.
friends do not point blame.
and i think we're playing the blame game.
and i've been very cowardly lately.
it was easier for me to sulk.
but all it caused was BAD BAD things.
weakness, harm, awkwardness, etc.
and if joshua could forgive me for what i did...
and he could joke with me and talk to me and everything like we did today.
then there is no reason why i can't solve the rest of my problems with friends and loved ones.
i have a new faith.
it's time for me to be more optimistic.
ok so how do i explain today...
1) not starting school today w/ everyone else - uhh WEIRD.
2) my parents telling me that one of them is moving out.
and then later on acting like everything is fine.
get divorced or shut the fuck up and leave me and my sister out of it.
so joshua spent the afternoon with me.
that is of course after dani treated me to a wonderful lunch.
such a good boyfriend! although its frightening when we STILL show up in matching outfits.. plaid skirts...honestly.
3) so while trying to relax at joshua's
his mom got threatened by her friend's soon to ex.
so i had to keep the 7 year olds upstairs.
pray that josh wouldn't break anything.
and helped letti get ahold of the cops, cps, and attourneys.
thank you christopher hess and his mother.
thank you for wednesday regular's al & greg.
i am taking letti to the courthouse on wednesday.
also i get to have lunch with papa john on wednesday.
so josh helped me, and i got to help his family.
that makes me feel good inside.
i love helping, solving, fixing things.
and i'm tired of playing ring around the rosies.
i thought time would help, but i think it did more damage than anything.
friends do not point blame.
and i think we're playing the blame game.
and i've been very cowardly lately.
it was easier for me to sulk.
but all it caused was BAD BAD things.
weakness, harm, awkwardness, etc.
and if joshua could forgive me for what i did...
and he could joke with me and talk to me and everything like we did today.
then there is no reason why i can't solve the rest of my problems with friends and loved ones.
i have a new faith.
it's time for me to be more optimistic.