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"when everything inside me
looks like everything i hate,
you are the hope i have for change,
you are the only chance i'll take."
i really really like this song. i think i fell in love with it the first time i heard it, which was at a harvest crusade a few years back. this was when switchfoot wasn't so popular, way way before "beautiful letdown" came out. i think before "a walk to remember" too, im not sure. i remember they sang it, and i was just so..still listening to it, i couldnt describe it. i went home and searched for the song on kazaa, but of course it wasnt there because they hadnt even recorded it yet. then i forgot about switchfoot for a while, until they all of a sudden started to become uber popular. but at least through that i refound this song.
most times i listen to it, it makes me cry. yeah yeah, call me an emo kid, make fun of me all you want. but it does. i dont exactly know why. maybe its how pretty the piano sounds. or maybe its the lyrics. maybe its the emotions that flow from the song itself. maybe its how it makes me feel and think. the lyrics basically deal with how the world makes him feel like crap, but whenever he's with God he's "on fire." maybe its that this song makes me realize how unhappy i really am with myself, and my life. its telling me im looking for...something...but in all the wrong places. i looked around to find that i had no one to go to. ive completely isolated myself, but as tough as it is, i think its for the best.
lately, i havent been able to sleep easily. i have to sleep listening to music, or i cant fall asleep. my ipod's been like my teddy bear. you know, its hard to find the right moment to turn off your ipod, where youre awake enough to turn off the ipod and take it out of your ears, but at the same time calmed and sleepy enough to fall asleep right away. if you get it too early, you have a hard time falling asleep. if you get it too late, and fall asleep before you turn off your ipod, you wake up with the earphones still stuck in your ears or under your back and the cord all over the place. uncomfortable. but i think im starting to get the hang of it.
im sorry if this entry was especially long and emo. dont use it against me to call me an emo kid, okay?
and i get to eat dinner all by my lonesome because the rest of my family is at a concert at the hollywood bowl of korean music that i dont listen to.
is there something you've had and still want..but you know you can't have anymore?
looks like everything i hate,
you are the hope i have for change,
you are the only chance i'll take."
i really really like this song. i think i fell in love with it the first time i heard it, which was at a harvest crusade a few years back. this was when switchfoot wasn't so popular, way way before "beautiful letdown" came out. i think before "a walk to remember" too, im not sure. i remember they sang it, and i was just so..still listening to it, i couldnt describe it. i went home and searched for the song on kazaa, but of course it wasnt there because they hadnt even recorded it yet. then i forgot about switchfoot for a while, until they all of a sudden started to become uber popular. but at least through that i refound this song.
most times i listen to it, it makes me cry. yeah yeah, call me an emo kid, make fun of me all you want. but it does. i dont exactly know why. maybe its how pretty the piano sounds. or maybe its the lyrics. maybe its the emotions that flow from the song itself. maybe its how it makes me feel and think. the lyrics basically deal with how the world makes him feel like crap, but whenever he's with God he's "on fire." maybe its that this song makes me realize how unhappy i really am with myself, and my life. its telling me im looking for...something...but in all the wrong places. i looked around to find that i had no one to go to. ive completely isolated myself, but as tough as it is, i think its for the best.
lately, i havent been able to sleep easily. i have to sleep listening to music, or i cant fall asleep. my ipod's been like my teddy bear. you know, its hard to find the right moment to turn off your ipod, where youre awake enough to turn off the ipod and take it out of your ears, but at the same time calmed and sleepy enough to fall asleep right away. if you get it too early, you have a hard time falling asleep. if you get it too late, and fall asleep before you turn off your ipod, you wake up with the earphones still stuck in your ears or under your back and the cord all over the place. uncomfortable. but i think im starting to get the hang of it.
im sorry if this entry was especially long and emo. dont use it against me to call me an emo kid, okay?
and i get to eat dinner all by my lonesome because the rest of my family is at a concert at the hollywood bowl of korean music that i dont listen to.
is there something you've had and still want..but you know you can't have anymore?