Burger Queen
As my dearest assley stated in a myspace bulletin, "remember when LJ could p0wn Myspace in a fight?"*
So here I am.
I know it's a little late for a New Years post, but we're almost halfway through January and I've been doing a lot of thinking about the past year. So many different changes and experiences crammed in a cluster-fuck of emotion, all in just 365 days. I am a different person now than I was on this day one year ago. I moved out, partied, made friends, lost friends, drugs, popularity, depression, loneliness, rejection, self loathing, music, no music, pretending, dreaming. Self realization. Love. Hit rock bottom only to rise again, stronger than ever before. Hope.
It's crazy, amazing and frightening.
Thirteen days into 2006, and already I'm getting that roller coaster feeling of uneasy excitement. Things around me changing rapidly, me changing rapidly.
A friend of mine died last Saturday.
She was beautiful, fun, outgoing and only 18 years old. Her name was Ally. She was full of life.
I'm not generally one to truly believe in a greater purpose, but Ally made me realize that I am not going to be here forever. She made me realize that if I were to stop existing tomorrow, there would be so many things left unfinished and unsaid. There's too much that I want to do.
Now I'm not one to make resolutions but if there's one thing I plan on doing this year, it's living life the way I've always wanted to. To make every moment count for something, to see life and really live it.
To make my dreams come true.
And 2006 approaches in a blur.
So here I am.
I know it's a little late for a New Years post, but we're almost halfway through January and I've been doing a lot of thinking about the past year. So many different changes and experiences crammed in a cluster-fuck of emotion, all in just 365 days. I am a different person now than I was on this day one year ago. I moved out, partied, made friends, lost friends, drugs, popularity, depression, loneliness, rejection, self loathing, music, no music, pretending, dreaming. Self realization. Love. Hit rock bottom only to rise again, stronger than ever before. Hope.
It's crazy, amazing and frightening.
Thirteen days into 2006, and already I'm getting that roller coaster feeling of uneasy excitement. Things around me changing rapidly, me changing rapidly.
A friend of mine died last Saturday.
She was beautiful, fun, outgoing and only 18 years old. Her name was Ally. She was full of life.
I'm not generally one to truly believe in a greater purpose, but Ally made me realize that I am not going to be here forever. She made me realize that if I were to stop existing tomorrow, there would be so many things left unfinished and unsaid. There's too much that I want to do.
Now I'm not one to make resolutions but if there's one thing I plan on doing this year, it's living life the way I've always wanted to. To make every moment count for something, to see life and really live it.
To make my dreams come true.
And 2006 approaches in a blur.