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I talked to Annie about my dreams and we came to some interesting conclusions.
About the mall/hobo episode:
We think something traumatic (hobo grabbing my bum) may have happened to make me want to confine myself to mundane things (shopping.) And I'm very terrified to try something outside my everyday routine because of whatever this thing was. It kind of makes sense.
The Movie/Julie/Lucas thing:
Well, with the shoe, I'm searching for something, but it never seems to be right and it is preventing me from accomplishing something important to me (the movie.) Kind of a Cinderella's step sister thing, she wants the prince but that shoe that would allow her to have him doesn't fit.
The Julie/Lucas thing is kind of along the same lines too. In my dream I really want something (this time Julie [maybe it's her free nature or something else about her that I value. I'm not sexually attracted to her.] but I can't have it because an obstacle (her parents in this case) gets in my way. So, I'm stuck with Lucas (ordinary, something I don't want,) who ends up unsatisfying, and terrifying. When I woke up from this dream, I was absolutely petrified.
So, in my dreams, I'm trying to get/do something and it seems that I'm facing insurmountable obstacles.
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I miss you.
I think you ruined my functionality. I'm surely broken.
About the mall/hobo episode:
We think something traumatic (hobo grabbing my bum) may have happened to make me want to confine myself to mundane things (shopping.) And I'm very terrified to try something outside my everyday routine because of whatever this thing was. It kind of makes sense.
The Movie/Julie/Lucas thing:
Well, with the shoe, I'm searching for something, but it never seems to be right and it is preventing me from accomplishing something important to me (the movie.) Kind of a Cinderella's step sister thing, she wants the prince but that shoe that would allow her to have him doesn't fit.
The Julie/Lucas thing is kind of along the same lines too. In my dream I really want something (this time Julie [maybe it's her free nature or something else about her that I value. I'm not sexually attracted to her.] but I can't have it because an obstacle (her parents in this case) gets in my way. So, I'm stuck with Lucas (ordinary, something I don't want,) who ends up unsatisfying, and terrifying. When I woke up from this dream, I was absolutely petrified.
So, in my dreams, I'm trying to get/do something and it seems that I'm facing insurmountable obstacles.
***
I miss you.
I think you ruined my functionality. I'm surely broken.