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Whenever I write in this thing I'm either really happy or really sad but right now I dont know how to feel. Argh. What is this I hear about moving? Into another county?! I think my mom is insane.. I don't want to move AGAIN! Shes already looking at houses.. and I don't know how to take it. The plans that I have heard so far are for this summer and who knows. She always changes her mind but I'm worried. I don't know what I would do changing schools senior year...how awkward. I'm thinking about graduating early.. I want out so I dont have to deal with that if it's the case. I know that one part of my life will def. be effected but then there is this other part.. STEPHEN. I love him so much and I couldnt move far away from him..I haven't even told him about it yet and I'm scared .. I don't know if I want to scare him with it because I don't know if its definite. But when my dad starts looking for a new house it must be quite a decision thats being made. I dont know what to do. I'm almost 18 and stuff but I can't move out .. I've got college to go to and visit this spring break, BUT i dont want to do that knowing that my senior year is going to be like shit and THEN I might not even be with Stephen if all this change gets in the way. How awful. I hate to think about something like this happening. I HATE CHANGE when your I'm so happy with things the way they are. I wish people wouldn't be so selfish. Stephen and I could last through anything it seems, but can we? All I can do is PRAY that I don't move away and that everything will be okay. I hate hearing plans for this kind of stuff. Take ur midlife crisis' SOMEWHERE ELSE! Argh! :/
Well this weekend is coming up soon and I have some thinking and shopping to do... It's somebody special's birthday real soon in 14 days!!! I wish I wasnt leaving so soon though after his bday to leave town to N.C. I wan't to do what I want sometime, when I want. I wish.. I love Stephen and care about him lotttts..I want to see him just as happy
I also can't wait until spring break...I also need to work more. Got some stuff to pay for still with my car.. so that wil take my mind off of things as well. Hopefully.
Well this weekend is coming up soon and I have some thinking and shopping to do... It's somebody special's birthday real soon in 14 days!!! I wish I wasnt leaving so soon though after his bday to leave town to N.C. I wan't to do what I want sometime, when I want. I wish.. I love Stephen and care about him lotttts..I want to see him just as happy
I also can't wait until spring break...I also need to work more. Got some stuff to pay for still with my car.. so that wil take my mind off of things as well. Hopefully.