6 hours to go..
So I have 6 hours left. But I don't know when I will get them done. You see Thursday while leaving school I discovored that I had a flat tire. I drove it home seeing my house is only a mile away. But she's pretty much fucked. So Robin picked me up for school the next day. And then seeing that this weekend was a 3 day weekend my dad picked me up, brought me back to Newcastle and now I'm stuck here because of the snow. I'll drive back when I can but it won't be tonight. Bangors supposed to get 5 inches and it isnt supposed to stop til 2 am tomorrow so maybe there will be no school? but I doubt it they hardly ever have no school unless instructors cant get there. And seeing that tomorrow is Freshman orientation.. where the next class comes... I don't think there gunna call off school unless instructors cant make it, because we are sort on instructors already and ith this fucked up new grading system they need more instructors not less.. so I dont know.
Anyways this weekend totaly blew. Didn't hangout with anyone and beign back here and beeing close enough to see him but not sucks.. seeign that he still doesnt talk to me and im getting really aggravated.. not wiht him, with myself. I mean this is all my fault. Why should he want to be with me? I broke up with him, I hurt him, why should he ever trust me again? he shouldnt. But I want him to, he CAN trust me, I WONT do it again. But I for one know how hard it is to trust somone who has hurt you. But I just wish he would give me a chance. I mean he is the one who always said "everybody deserves a second chance" so why not? I atleast think that he should talk to me.. I hate not talkign to him. I know i sprung this on him and he doenst know what to do or think probubally, maybe he thinks that I will try and pressure him but im not going to I just want to talk to him. I got him something, it turned out wrong. They did it backwards, it isn;t right, I wont give it to him. why should I anyways. It was a nice thought but he probubally just thinks I'm crazy or soemthing. I dont even know what to think or feel anymore. But I'm upset, I'm heartbroke, I love hima nd I don't knwo what to do
Anyways this weekend totaly blew. Didn't hangout with anyone and beign back here and beeing close enough to see him but not sucks.. seeign that he still doesnt talk to me and im getting really aggravated.. not wiht him, with myself. I mean this is all my fault. Why should he want to be with me? I broke up with him, I hurt him, why should he ever trust me again? he shouldnt. But I want him to, he CAN trust me, I WONT do it again. But I for one know how hard it is to trust somone who has hurt you. But I just wish he would give me a chance. I mean he is the one who always said "everybody deserves a second chance" so why not? I atleast think that he should talk to me.. I hate not talkign to him. I know i sprung this on him and he doenst know what to do or think probubally, maybe he thinks that I will try and pressure him but im not going to I just want to talk to him. I got him something, it turned out wrong. They did it backwards, it isn;t right, I wont give it to him. why should I anyways. It was a nice thought but he probubally just thinks I'm crazy or soemthing. I dont even know what to think or feel anymore. But I'm upset, I'm heartbroke, I love hima nd I don't knwo what to do