a beautiful but sad day

[explosivebeauty]

We just buried Uncle Bill today. It was an extremly sad day for all of us. I mean he has done so much for us and it was sad that he had to go. So many emotions are bottled up right now. I am in the lib so i am trying not to shead any tears but yea. Who can i go to? I mean there is no one there. My family but they are experiencing the same thing that i am so... i dont want to burden with my feelings. Friends yea they always say they are going to be there n never show up or answer the fuckin phone when u call. When did i ever fuckin turn someone away when i said i was going to be there for some dick? Once i was late to Ericas hawiian theme thing but i was there n that is what counts. I am just so angry at everyone right now n i dont want to b this way. Y cant i have the one person that cared for me so much other than my fam. who rode for me the most again. he fucked up but damn i miss having someone like that. No one is perfect but damn someone has to b close.

no where to run.... no one to cry on.... no one to show love to.... no one who really cares.

I love my fam. n i will always b there for u!!! KISSES