collective calm of calamity
What an insane streak of calm, quite unnecessarily and unexpectedly. I should be working on a paper due on Friday. I am sick. And instead, I have this eery sense of calm and contemplation.
I am graduating in about a week. This entails a great many things, many of which are scary and exciting all at the same time. I have freaked out already. About my boyfriend, about my goals, and more. But for some reason I am at peace at this very moment. What happens will happen. I will figure it out as it comes. If he and I are meant to be, it will happen. If we aren't, it will happen. If my best friend and are no longer friends, it will happen. There is only so much I can do. And I am okay with that.
Chloros, my turtle has been really calm tonight. He was just chilling at the bottom of the tank sleeping in the corner by me as I wrote my paper. It's funny but sometimes I worry about him when he's like that. When he's too calm. I shouldn't.
This summer is going to hold great things. I can feel it. I can smell it through my stuffed up nose. It will be the first time in my life where I am free. Totally free to do what I want. There are no preprescribed paths for me anymore. No classes I should take, no restraints. I can choose. The road ahead is paved in opportunity.
I am graduating in about a week. This entails a great many things, many of which are scary and exciting all at the same time. I have freaked out already. About my boyfriend, about my goals, and more. But for some reason I am at peace at this very moment. What happens will happen. I will figure it out as it comes. If he and I are meant to be, it will happen. If we aren't, it will happen. If my best friend and are no longer friends, it will happen. There is only so much I can do. And I am okay with that.
Chloros, my turtle has been really calm tonight. He was just chilling at the bottom of the tank sleeping in the corner by me as I wrote my paper. It's funny but sometimes I worry about him when he's like that. When he's too calm. I shouldn't.
This summer is going to hold great things. I can feel it. I can smell it through my stuffed up nose. It will be the first time in my life where I am free. Totally free to do what I want. There are no preprescribed paths for me anymore. No classes I should take, no restraints. I can choose. The road ahead is paved in opportunity.