i would imagine there is no hope sometimes
i guess a chapter is coming close to an end.
i am tired. i don't have enough estelle time. i need to trust myself, i tell myself this a lot and i tell myself that things take time.
i dont know really know what to make much of anything. i don't want to think about it too much, but i was happier not contemplating these things. a duality that exists on the same side of the mirror.
im missing no one except my good ol' self. i want to go back to my old shoes, but there is no way of going backward.
just a couple of days i started listening to people. its great, i am hearing things i never knew about. i can only name two or three people who listen to me. elyse, matt gray, and strangely, eric. no one else really listens. i dont know why they are even on the phone in the first place. well i guess it doesn't just happen on the phone, but it's in person too. i have been guilty of this also. i wonder what everybody is distracted by? i wish they would talk about that instead of pretending to listen.
sleep time.
i am tired. i don't have enough estelle time. i need to trust myself, i tell myself this a lot and i tell myself that things take time.
i dont know really know what to make much of anything. i don't want to think about it too much, but i was happier not contemplating these things. a duality that exists on the same side of the mirror.
im missing no one except my good ol' self. i want to go back to my old shoes, but there is no way of going backward.
just a couple of days i started listening to people. its great, i am hearing things i never knew about. i can only name two or three people who listen to me. elyse, matt gray, and strangely, eric. no one else really listens. i dont know why they are even on the phone in the first place. well i guess it doesn't just happen on the phone, but it's in person too. i have been guilty of this also. i wonder what everybody is distracted by? i wish they would talk about that instead of pretending to listen.
sleep time.