Jesus Christ I'm alone again
I've been listening to the new Brand New songs a lot.
they're feeding my fucked up-ness.
I'm ok with that.
weird fucking moods and feelings all the time lately. not sure how to deal with it...
but in the mean time, I think I'm going to take MarkWaters' idea here:
leave a comment with your name if you want to know what I think of you.I'll try my ( Read more... )
they're feeding my fucked up-ness.
I'm ok with that.
weird fucking moods and feelings all the time lately. not sure how to deal with it...
but in the mean time, I think I'm going to take MarkWaters' idea here:
leave a comment with your name if you want to know what I think of you.I'll try my ( Read more... )
my reply to you is the hardest one for me to write.
nothing is the same as it was. I think that started when I left for Cape Cod. but no, that's not right either. it started long before that. this feels like it goes back to some time earlier this year, around March or so. I remember losing the feeling that you thought of me as your closest friend. but the worst part was that I still felt like you were my closest friend. so essentially, I was a stupid puppy. and that has just become more and more true as time as gone on. I realize that as a law of nature, things have to change. but I don't feel like this was by nature, and that's why it hurts me so much.
I've been thinking about you a lot lately. I realized a while ago that I hadn't heard a word about the University of Michigan since before graduation and that thought scared the shit out of me. I can't really explain how frightened I am that you aren't going to do anything with yourself. You are one of the smartest, brightest, and most intelligent people I know, and the chance that you might be ignoring your potential makes me want to cry. I really hope that my lack of knowledge on this subject is only due to the fact that we no longer talk. please, please tell me that you're going to UofM and becoming someone great like I know you can and I know you deserve to be.
as for some other things. Whatever it is that's going on with Dale... I'm not really sure what it is, nor do I really care to know exactly what it is, but I think it's pretty ridiculous. I suppose it's not my place to say anything more than that since I'm not in the least informed about it (another thing which kind if fucking stings), so I suppose I will leave it at that.
I'm not sure what more to say. other than I love you, and I truly cherish all the wonderful times we had together.
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