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[explictdyke]

DUDE wtf...i dont feel good at all and i have to go to school/work...im thinken about calling channing and telling her not to pick me up for school...and then calling my work and telling them im not coming in...i really need the hrs though...but last night i didnt sleep well cuz all i could think about is amanda and how she is soo pissed at me and i fully understand why i shoulda came back...but the time megan and racheal got back to chans it was like 910 and i told amanda 915 and then i would still be braken my promise...i asked her if she wanted to come over at 10 but she yelled and whatever...i understand why she is mad at me...but seriously i didnt even plan to smoke pot soo i wasnt ditchen out on her to smoke pot...i bought a bag for us to smoek together i gave channing a bouhl for taken me v-day shoppin and that was it so me and amanda ended up gettin into a fight and i told her not to come over...its n ot that i didnt wanna see her its just i didnt wanna fight i didnt wanna look into her eyes and know i made her cry again...sometimes i wonder why she stays with me or even loves me..im such an asshole god damn...i slept most the night but i kept waken up around like 5-6 i passed back out at six but here i am now!! soo yeah i wake up and my stomach is killing me i dunno what is wrong with me...and i go in the bathroom to take a piss and whatever and my left eye wont open up all the way and it hurts really fucking bad **********SIGH********* and i work 12-4 and i dunno if i wanan do that either..all i really wanan do right now is lay in bed with amanda..but i kno she is pissed at me...i still dont kno what i wanna do...soo im gonna take a shower and then call channing to tell her my plans or somethen....

all night long i dreamed of her kiss and her touch

I FEEL LIKE SHIT

AND WHY WONT MY FUCKING EYE OPEN! I DONT WANNA LOOK LIKE A FUCKING PIRATE!