2008 wtf?
so last night my father had the balls to come up to me [yes, of course he was drunk as fuck] .. telling me basically that he has no idea why he stopped talking to me and tht he neeeeeeds me
mother fucker.... ugh.. its so hard to just forgive and forget.. God knows thats not my style at all... but he's my dad... my blood... it's hardddddd it's hard... i know he's an ass and a mother fucker a son of a bitch... but god dammit i can't just ignore the fact that i love him unconditionally... and it hurt to push his drunk ass away 7 times last night when he tried huggin me... it all hurts..
but maybe im capable of being mature and trying to have a decent relationship with the guy...
no ones going to like the idea.. but my heart is pulling me towards him so much....
cant forget when he told me... "dont fucking cry.. i didnt teach you to weak" and i just screamed back "dont fucking call me weak.. i am so far from weak... " i repeated it like 4 times... i was just crying because i get frustrated talking spanish.. not being able to fully express myself....
he somehow abandoned me for 2 years and im just gonna let it slide like nothing i've ever done before
he told me he's too proud to apologize and i told him im twice as proud as him and that if he doesnt apologize SOBER... TODAY... that he's going to lose his daughter... forever... because if you mean it... you mean it...
i can't ask for him things that i know people will never obtain from me... my pride stands so damn strong
ugh
wtf is up with 2008? tomorrow is court... tomorrow i find out if.... ugh....
mother fucker.... ugh.. its so hard to just forgive and forget.. God knows thats not my style at all... but he's my dad... my blood... it's hardddddd it's hard... i know he's an ass and a mother fucker a son of a bitch... but god dammit i can't just ignore the fact that i love him unconditionally... and it hurt to push his drunk ass away 7 times last night when he tried huggin me... it all hurts..
but maybe im capable of being mature and trying to have a decent relationship with the guy...
no ones going to like the idea.. but my heart is pulling me towards him so much....
cant forget when he told me... "dont fucking cry.. i didnt teach you to weak" and i just screamed back "dont fucking call me weak.. i am so far from weak... " i repeated it like 4 times... i was just crying because i get frustrated talking spanish.. not being able to fully express myself....
he somehow abandoned me for 2 years and im just gonna let it slide like nothing i've ever done before
he told me he's too proud to apologize and i told him im twice as proud as him and that if he doesnt apologize SOBER... TODAY... that he's going to lose his daughter... forever... because if you mean it... you mean it...
i can't ask for him things that i know people will never obtain from me... my pride stands so damn strong
ugh
wtf is up with 2008? tomorrow is court... tomorrow i find out if.... ugh....