Pictures i tryed to forget.
Technically were on a break , she told me i don't have head in faith or something, i never realized that could affect a realtionship i mean if two people love each other does it matter if there views on the world are a little diffrent? jewish people and chirstain people get married all the time it does'nt matter. I feel like i don't meet her standards like i'm not good enough .she said she needs someone who has a head in faith or soemething i don't really no what it means, i was'nt really ever intorduce to all that but i believe in everything chirstains do i just don't know all the stuff. are realationship is completly fine but that effected it i don't get it. since were on a break were gonna see what life is like with out each other. she'll either realized her life is empty and lonely with me or she'll realize she's better off. i figure i won't call for like a week and let her think about her faith and all that that she told me she needs to figure out, she said she would like to be togther again and she hopes we can if everything works out by this point i've given up and comeplelty saw something coming. but i'm trying so hard not to call her to just let her know or someone know, hey i could of die two times yesterday or went to a beautiful place and wish you were there. and just ask her about her day maybe she'll miss hearing that or miss being asked or maybe she'll find it a relief. I'm trying to get the hell outta my house as of now i got nothing to look forward to or doing. I also lost another camera i can't film again or the 4th time this is it.i'm getting a job for real a saving for a vx1000 i've had it i have to finally make my dreams come true and stop wasting time. As of now i feel like giving up but i can't i'm still gonna keep trying i'm very empty cuz i have nothing to really cheer me up or keep going. I lost everything within a week. oh yeah and my brother straight up stuck me in the face two days ago so i don't really have family either and later that night kelsey told me all that. Life's looking lovely right about now.