the bloggiest of moods- read with caution
dearest j-
well today is my two month anniversary with jim. that itself is reason to post. i have far surpassed my previous relationship lengths and we are doing great. that being said...
*begins incomprehensible ramble*
i felt like such an idiot tonight. we had this conversation about techno music (mind you, neither of us like it). and i sounded so uneducated, not only about the subject, but my thought process was non-existant. even now i am so inarticulate i cannot form a sentence that reflects anything i want to express. eh. i wanted to write about my opinions...but i would need to completely put it into essay format. and that's just not happenning. maybe i can blame my lack of intelligence on the end of the semester. or maybe this was just bound to happen...he had to see sooner or later...i am a nutjob. i have tried to hide it and i think i have done a sufficient job of doing so until tonight. i mean he knows i am weird...but i really havent "let the crazy come out."
now that it has...i really wish it was on a better subject. we spent nearly an hour talking about it. i was under this ignorant impression that a computer program made any song in the world a techno song. in my mind there were no humans involved...just machines. you plug in the song to the program and then as a dj you just press play. it took me so long to realize that wasnt true, let alone to explain that's what i thought a remix was. so right from the start all of my comments were judgemental and unrelated to the points he was making. by the time i had sorted out what was really going on, i realized that i was arguing two different things unconnected and he was patiently maintaining the same stance the whole time...trying his best to offer different analogies and examples to get me to understand his point. by then i had figured out why my points werent matching his argument... and then having no hope at all of recovering. he would have had to disect my train of thought to understand even the slightest bit what i was thinking. i could feel my position shift in my mind, but i could not get that to come out of my mouth.
(i know this probably made no sense at all, but i really really needed to write about this)
*ends incomprehensible ramble*
so yeah, point being, he's awesome for even tolerating the conversation...well not the conversation, but my craziness.
le sigh. what are you gonna do?
separate note:
yanks won three in a row and are currently in 2nd place!!! lol. ok, ok, so they are tied with a million other teams for second, but it's not last place anymore. "win us some games boys!"
related note:
joshy is 6-0 for 2007. grrr. if he was with florida last year, he'd be on the yankees this year and we'd have a solid, winning pitcher on the team! but no...had to join the sox. josh beckett if you ever put on pinstripes i will kick your butt!
well getting all that out just helped me get tired enough to go to bed. 1:19am. works for me.
love,
leigh
well today is my two month anniversary with jim. that itself is reason to post. i have far surpassed my previous relationship lengths and we are doing great. that being said...
*begins incomprehensible ramble*
i felt like such an idiot tonight. we had this conversation about techno music (mind you, neither of us like it). and i sounded so uneducated, not only about the subject, but my thought process was non-existant. even now i am so inarticulate i cannot form a sentence that reflects anything i want to express. eh. i wanted to write about my opinions...but i would need to completely put it into essay format. and that's just not happenning. maybe i can blame my lack of intelligence on the end of the semester. or maybe this was just bound to happen...he had to see sooner or later...i am a nutjob. i have tried to hide it and i think i have done a sufficient job of doing so until tonight. i mean he knows i am weird...but i really havent "let the crazy come out."
now that it has...i really wish it was on a better subject. we spent nearly an hour talking about it. i was under this ignorant impression that a computer program made any song in the world a techno song. in my mind there were no humans involved...just machines. you plug in the song to the program and then as a dj you just press play. it took me so long to realize that wasnt true, let alone to explain that's what i thought a remix was. so right from the start all of my comments were judgemental and unrelated to the points he was making. by the time i had sorted out what was really going on, i realized that i was arguing two different things unconnected and he was patiently maintaining the same stance the whole time...trying his best to offer different analogies and examples to get me to understand his point. by then i had figured out why my points werent matching his argument... and then having no hope at all of recovering. he would have had to disect my train of thought to understand even the slightest bit what i was thinking. i could feel my position shift in my mind, but i could not get that to come out of my mouth.
(i know this probably made no sense at all, but i really really needed to write about this)
*ends incomprehensible ramble*
so yeah, point being, he's awesome for even tolerating the conversation...well not the conversation, but my craziness.
le sigh. what are you gonna do?
separate note:
yanks won three in a row and are currently in 2nd place!!! lol. ok, ok, so they are tied with a million other teams for second, but it's not last place anymore. "win us some games boys!"
related note:
joshy is 6-0 for 2007. grrr. if he was with florida last year, he'd be on the yankees this year and we'd have a solid, winning pitcher on the team! but no...had to join the sox. josh beckett if you ever put on pinstripes i will kick your butt!
well getting all that out just helped me get tired enough to go to bed. 1:19am. works for me.
love,
leigh