twin flames
Heart aches as I go another day with you missing
Head aches as I listen to a song
Mind anguished and tear filled eyes as pain and confusion of separation sets in
Spirit is Heavy as the worry leads me somewhere I don't want to be
Ego is relentless as long as I dance with it; He can feel me so I learned unless I center it'll become a temporary divide
Still the more I recognized his voice through another, I couldn't let go
Doesn't he know it just feels like he's taunting me; no reassurance with a real time hello
Panic and communicate through this make believe character just to connect
If only he knew the true I am, then would the unity matter more or as we part, with false fear the more it'll repulse
Then I realize the need to apologize, He's known all along yet it hurts bc still after years, he avoids it; why.
No distraction is the harshest circumstance while I go without a hand to hold or a friend to see
I battle the tedious days of depression and the more embittered I become
I sleep with the pain and it becomes so intense my soul breaks free of mind and body
Magnetically drawn to where he dreams through the night, easingly merge with him to savor the soothe of short lived ecstacy
Then I wake to another quiet and lonely day and the sense of rejection is new yet again.
Without the constant cultivation of forgiveness, I'd never rise from the devastation.
I agonizingly reach across the miles for his hands and as our fingers link, I lean back as we begin to spin.
I look up into the night sky and the sadness settles in as I recall the moment in space of when we were one.
Then I slip away and fly back with my one familiar thought of despair and I crash into the fear of a reality possibly forever without you.
As I try to decide if it's Hope he delivers or just a means to an end, from now on I'll choose to think of the gentle and optimistic man, imagine his playful laughter as I walk into his open arms, and then I feel it all fall away like golden red baby leaves windblown from a rooftop.
Head aches as I listen to a song
Mind anguished and tear filled eyes as pain and confusion of separation sets in
Spirit is Heavy as the worry leads me somewhere I don't want to be
Ego is relentless as long as I dance with it; He can feel me so I learned unless I center it'll become a temporary divide
Still the more I recognized his voice through another, I couldn't let go
Doesn't he know it just feels like he's taunting me; no reassurance with a real time hello
Panic and communicate through this make believe character just to connect
If only he knew the true I am, then would the unity matter more or as we part, with false fear the more it'll repulse
Then I realize the need to apologize, He's known all along yet it hurts bc still after years, he avoids it; why.
No distraction is the harshest circumstance while I go without a hand to hold or a friend to see
I battle the tedious days of depression and the more embittered I become
I sleep with the pain and it becomes so intense my soul breaks free of mind and body
Magnetically drawn to where he dreams through the night, easingly merge with him to savor the soothe of short lived ecstacy
Then I wake to another quiet and lonely day and the sense of rejection is new yet again.
Without the constant cultivation of forgiveness, I'd never rise from the devastation.
I agonizingly reach across the miles for his hands and as our fingers link, I lean back as we begin to spin.
I look up into the night sky and the sadness settles in as I recall the moment in space of when we were one.
Then I slip away and fly back with my one familiar thought of despair and I crash into the fear of a reality possibly forever without you.
As I try to decide if it's Hope he delivers or just a means to an end, from now on I'll choose to think of the gentle and optimistic man, imagine his playful laughter as I walk into his open arms, and then I feel it all fall away like golden red baby leaves windblown from a rooftop.