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I am so tired of people bumming me out and dragging me down.....I'm sick of allowing people to think they can tell me what and how to do something....it's my life so aren't I at least entitled to being free to make my own choices w/out having to explain myself or answer to anyone...my mother makes me feel like everyone I interact with must be just about close to Perfect...so sometimes I figure it's just easier for me to stay Anti Social.....but I'm tired of not having any friends or avoiding men cuz I know my mother will most likely not approve of them since she had a man that was just about close to perfect.....I've just recently found out that this guy I always assumed was just a pure asshole yet still seem to somehow naturally care about him and his family...really isn't an asshole....he's just been suffering from a BiPolar Disorder....I've educated myself on the subject and although it was enlightening and helped me better understand him ....it totally bummed me out.....now that I have to move on with my love life...I don't know what to do.....I don't know if I should continue to extend on such a confusing relationship w/ this guy that has so many issues.....where his distorted, negative thoughts directly coincide with his improper, confusing behavior or emotionally unhealthily cut myself off from being bonded to people just because they're not "close to perfect" or reaching the standard I personally live by and aren't exactly what my mother would approve of....God, Help Me.

*Well...it turns out, he isn't Bipolar and he was just talking outta his ass....or was trying to test me to see if it'd scare me off....what a relief*