how would u feel..
A 30 minute of lies and questions
I respect relationship so much that I will do everything not to mess it up. I love my boyfriend soo soo much that it hurts.. I was just talking to my roomate and my friend ray about the whole situation. Its not really an issue but it just bothers me so much. The situation right now is that my boyfriend randomly told me this Saturday that he hang out with ex-bf a month ago to smoke some Weed.. In some way im glad that he told me about it but in some ways it bothers me for 1. He told me before that he is a big pathological liar thats the reason why it didnt work out. 2. He just lie about something and 3. He wasnt as attractive to him in the beginning anyways. My point here is that "how come he still hang out with him despite all those frustations and lies that they have on the past... I just dont get it... And since my bf usually tell me that he hang out with his usual friend Mel or D. i just wonder that if he used the same excuse to meet his x so i wouldnt feel uncomfortable about it?..I mean in all honesty I feel like i kinda got lied to in certain ways..I question to myself, "What if he did lie to me"??What should i do?? I told him that it bothers me and I would really appreciate if he will not do that again. And he said that he will not do that again and he didnt even say sorry to me about it.I question myself.
1. If you cant stand him then why did u still bother to hang out with him? His response: It just because for the sake of W. and i dont have somebody to smoke with?
2. If he is a pathological liar and lie to u about everything, then why still bother hanging out with? Is it really because of Drugs? Or what?
3. I wonder if they smoke in the backyard or they smoke inside his room? Cuz if that is lastmonth then that must be so freezing cold and i doubt it that you will be in the backyard?
I wonder if he ever thought on how would he feel if.
1. I hang out with my x bf and watch a movie in his room/couch and enjoying the night? Well my response to that would be ...Well i dont do W but i enjoy watching movie cuz i have nobody to watch with?
2. If i tell him that im hanging out with my Ray but technically i was hanging with my x because i need something desperately. in this case its not drug.. It can be anything..
Enoughhh of this...
Btw did i mention that his x bf left me a message on friendster on the past stating that my bf right now is his "Left over"
I got so furious when i got that message and since then i never really talk to him.. Its all began when i send all my friends and aqcuaintance a forward message about True love.. its about if u dont send this in 15 of ur friends in 5 mins u will not find true love or get anything.. I mean i know its spam and shit but his x bf specifically message me that" Oh Great Rico, Thanks a lot.. Honey your going out with my x bf who pretty much my left over" and your there to pick it up and your telling me that I will not find love"??
When i read that I feel totally awful.. I didnt really mention that to him cuz it might hurt his feeling but its just way to disrecpectful. And for me I am so mad that he call him that cuz my bf is a great guy and he is not a left over. His x bf was so stupid and dumb not to have him.
But now seeing this situation that he still hang out with him is a lil bit slap on my face.. I said to myself look at the guy that i was defending and the guy that im with and the guy that cant stand his x cuz his a pathologial liar...
He turn out to stab me not just in the back but in my heart. I wish he knew this... It does hurt...
Hey listen.. Im not gonna really put a big drama out of this... All i want is for him to say sorry and realize that there are reason why they call them X.. And no matter what, it still x for a reason..
i love u stephen but sometimes think before you do things.. Just be lucky that you found me.. Someone who always care and put up things just to be happy, someone who care and dont lie to u.. I really wish sometimes i know how to smoke W, drink beer or do things so i can accomodate you.. But that is not me..It will never be me..=(
I hope u understand and realize how this small lil things bothers me... I know u keep telling me not to worry too much. and u loved me and be happy.. But hearing this things and finding this out will pull my trigger for Deceit,Lies and trust..
anyways i hope i can tell u this in person.. I hope i can hold my tears.. I love u
-- rico
I respect relationship so much that I will do everything not to mess it up. I love my boyfriend soo soo much that it hurts.. I was just talking to my roomate and my friend ray about the whole situation. Its not really an issue but it just bothers me so much. The situation right now is that my boyfriend randomly told me this Saturday that he hang out with ex-bf a month ago to smoke some Weed.. In some way im glad that he told me about it but in some ways it bothers me for 1. He told me before that he is a big pathological liar thats the reason why it didnt work out. 2. He just lie about something and 3. He wasnt as attractive to him in the beginning anyways. My point here is that "how come he still hang out with him despite all those frustations and lies that they have on the past... I just dont get it... And since my bf usually tell me that he hang out with his usual friend Mel or D. i just wonder that if he used the same excuse to meet his x so i wouldnt feel uncomfortable about it?..I mean in all honesty I feel like i kinda got lied to in certain ways..I question to myself, "What if he did lie to me"??What should i do?? I told him that it bothers me and I would really appreciate if he will not do that again. And he said that he will not do that again and he didnt even say sorry to me about it.I question myself.
1. If you cant stand him then why did u still bother to hang out with him? His response: It just because for the sake of W. and i dont have somebody to smoke with?
2. If he is a pathological liar and lie to u about everything, then why still bother hanging out with? Is it really because of Drugs? Or what?
3. I wonder if they smoke in the backyard or they smoke inside his room? Cuz if that is lastmonth then that must be so freezing cold and i doubt it that you will be in the backyard?
I wonder if he ever thought on how would he feel if.
1. I hang out with my x bf and watch a movie in his room/couch and enjoying the night? Well my response to that would be ...Well i dont do W but i enjoy watching movie cuz i have nobody to watch with?
2. If i tell him that im hanging out with my Ray but technically i was hanging with my x because i need something desperately. in this case its not drug.. It can be anything..
Enoughhh of this...
Btw did i mention that his x bf left me a message on friendster on the past stating that my bf right now is his "Left over"
I got so furious when i got that message and since then i never really talk to him.. Its all began when i send all my friends and aqcuaintance a forward message about True love.. its about if u dont send this in 15 of ur friends in 5 mins u will not find true love or get anything.. I mean i know its spam and shit but his x bf specifically message me that" Oh Great Rico, Thanks a lot.. Honey your going out with my x bf who pretty much my left over" and your there to pick it up and your telling me that I will not find love"??
When i read that I feel totally awful.. I didnt really mention that to him cuz it might hurt his feeling but its just way to disrecpectful. And for me I am so mad that he call him that cuz my bf is a great guy and he is not a left over. His x bf was so stupid and dumb not to have him.
But now seeing this situation that he still hang out with him is a lil bit slap on my face.. I said to myself look at the guy that i was defending and the guy that im with and the guy that cant stand his x cuz his a pathologial liar...
He turn out to stab me not just in the back but in my heart. I wish he knew this... It does hurt...
Hey listen.. Im not gonna really put a big drama out of this... All i want is for him to say sorry and realize that there are reason why they call them X.. And no matter what, it still x for a reason..
i love u stephen but sometimes think before you do things.. Just be lucky that you found me.. Someone who always care and put up things just to be happy, someone who care and dont lie to u.. I really wish sometimes i know how to smoke W, drink beer or do things so i can accomodate you.. But that is not me..It will never be me..=(
I hope u understand and realize how this small lil things bothers me... I know u keep telling me not to worry too much. and u loved me and be happy.. But hearing this things and finding this out will pull my trigger for Deceit,Lies and trust..
anyways i hope i can tell u this in person.. I hope i can hold my tears.. I love u
-- rico