Trip to Houston
I was 15..lost and was venturing out into the world...i was visiting the relatives and on one of these "adventures" i was extremely violated by some one that you wouldnt expect, someone i trusted, someone who was an uncle to me and a part of the family for years......
He called me today. It took me 2 yrs to forget about that day and to move on...he reminded me of it. He pryed into my personal life ...then he told me why he did that to me......To teach me a lesson...to teach me to stay away from all kinds of affection that comes from a male.
To him it was justified.. making me feel dirty, making me feel uncomfortable, the way he touched me......it was to teach a lesson ...so there was nothing wrong with it?
But to me......it made me hate myself even more than what i wanted......ive never told anyone.....................
Until Now
I deserved it but i wish it never happened... I wish that day ever came... All i can do is wish to erase that day but i cant
Its amazing how i spend days and months repressing that moment in my life and in only 1 minute with one word all the feelings and emotions comes back to me....
He called me today. It took me 2 yrs to forget about that day and to move on...he reminded me of it. He pryed into my personal life ...then he told me why he did that to me......To teach me a lesson...to teach me to stay away from all kinds of affection that comes from a male.
To him it was justified.. making me feel dirty, making me feel uncomfortable, the way he touched me......it was to teach a lesson ...so there was nothing wrong with it?
But to me......it made me hate myself even more than what i wanted......ive never told anyone.....................
Until Now
I deserved it but i wish it never happened... I wish that day ever came... All i can do is wish to erase that day but i cant
Its amazing how i spend days and months repressing that moment in my life and in only 1 minute with one word all the feelings and emotions comes back to me....