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Lu Han doesn't manage an answer but his hand is guided between Yixing's legs and he pumps his shaft obediently. The raw friction makes Yixing wince at first but he can't wriggle out of his grip because he's trapped between Lu Han's cock pounding into him and his fist jacking him off with too-quick, almost painful strokes but soon, before the precome can even ease the slide of Lu Han's hand, he comes hard. His walls squeeze tightly around Lu Han who grabs his hips and slams into him throughout his orgasm, not caring that the friction against the mattress rubs the skin over his hipbone raw. His hips stutter and with a few last powerful thrusts, he comes deep inside Yixing, filling the condom.
Catching his breath, he pulls out carefully and releases Yixing from his embrace. Both of them roll onto their backs and lie bonelessly side to side, staring up at the dirty ceiling. Lu Han feels around for Yixing's hand and holds it when he finds it.
"Are you okay?" he asks, stroking his thumb over Yixing's knuckles. He feels Yixing's shoulders bump against his lightly when he shrugs.
"They should've gotten the antidote by now, don't you think?" he wonders aloud instead of an answer. Lu Han nods even though Yixing probably can't see it and then they fall silent, lying completely still for a long moment. Lu Han would probably start getting cold after a while but his right side basks in the warmth radiating from Yixing. He closes his eyes and sees Yixing playing his guitar, Yixing dancing on their debut stage, Yixing moving his lips as he sings to himself and how it had given him hope. And it still does. He's convinced that they have to hold on to who they were before all of this so they can go back. An idea forms in his head and this time, he acts on it before he can lose his courage.
"Yixing?" he calls softly. A short hum tells him that the other is listening. "Do you remember the concert we were on our way to?" Another hum, a confirmative answer. Of course Yixing remembers.
"We would've sang this." Lu Han takes a deep breath before releasing it softly and sings.
"Hao xiang shen me dou bu dong de yi ge hai zi yi yang chun zhen
Chong sheng na ge mei li de shun jian."
*As innocent as a child who doesn't understand anything
That beautiful moment of rebirth.
For almost a heartbeat too long, Yixing doesn't respond and Lu Han is just about to start doubting his idea when he hears a slow exhale and then the familiar notes float through the air.
"Shuang yan bi shang you zheng kai hai pa zhe yi qie zhi shi meng
Liu lian..."
*Close and then open your eyes afraid that everything is a dream
With nostalgia...
Here, Yixing lets the notes fade away beautifully before his voice breaks as the meaning of their lines sinks in and he chokes up. Lu Han can tell that Yixing is crying silently and, holding his hand in his, he listens to Yixing's breaths until they even out again.
"Ge? Thank you for not calling me a slut when I asked you to."
Lu Han squeezes Yixing's hand tightly, their fingers intertwined.
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TOO MUCH FEELS FROM READING THIS UGH XINGXING ;~~~~~;
this is such a great piece anon thank you so much for writing!
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omg so much feels in this D:
it hurts omg my heart ;_;
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and the layhan ofc!! broke my heart to read lu han's flashbacks urgh that hurt the most t b h u__u still sobbing over yixing's transformation after everything TTTT the ending was perfect thank you ;n; not too cheesy and just the right amt of bffery ;n; thank you writernon!!!! /kisseus
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i feel bad for tao too and asdfgh hope someone will write the conclusion to this whole chanyeol/tao and kris between them thing.
I have a question tho - did all of what Yixing list happen to him for real or was it what Sehun said to break him down? :/
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Yes, I hope that too.
And to answer your question: You can of course interpret it any way you like. In my head, he did not do those things for real and Sehun didn't say them. (He only abused him physically. But wow, that's a really interesting, and frightening, thought that Sehun somehow made him believe those things about himself!) I wanted it to be some kind of twisted coping mechanism to protect himself from emotional harm, like, he convinced himself that he acts like a 'slut' and that he does it willingly and has done so before. But he doesn't really believe it himself, that's why, when he notices Lu Han crying, he tells Lu Han he'll stop.
Hope this makes sense ^^ If there's anything you don't understand, feel free to ask.
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Mm, it makes sense. I just jumped to a conclusion that Sehun could have abuse him verbally too, maybe as a reaction to having watched others go through Yixing before and that being some type of weird coping mechanism for HIM.
Fuck, I can't get over this fic. Hoping to find out your identity soon so I can go through your archive for more fics ;3;
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