ROUND 01: SECOND CHANCES (PROMPT #60)
Title: Second Chances
Pairing: Chanyeol/Jongin
Rating: R (themes)
Words: 2,000 w.
Warning: Mpreg, mentions of miscarriage, abo dynamics, hint at a suggestion of abortion
Summary: Jongin had said they weren’t going to try for a baby again.
Prompt #60
A/N: I’m so sorry there was supposed to be more of this fic but I ran out of time. I love the prompt and I’m really sorry it’s not completely finished, as I would have liked.
Chanyeol sighed, he was looking at the room he never took down. He secretly liked to come into the jungle-themed nursery. He liked to just sit in the chair by the window and look out, imagining what it would be like to be holding his son. He couldn't hold his son, and Jongin had told him they weren't going to be having a child. Jongin didn't want to get pregnant again and Chanyeol wanted to look after his omega, and after what had happened he wasn't going to put his omega through it all again. Jongin and him had done enough talking about it, and talking meant crying. Chanyeol's heart broke over and over again when he thought of his omega crying, he hated the sound of the other crying. He knew that there was nothing he could do to take away the pain that Jongin felt after losing a child. Jongin had always blamed himself, like it was his fault that there were complications in labour. He kept saying it was his fault, that if he'd been better then their child would have made it. But Chanyeol knew that wasn't true, that Jongin did everything in his power but it wasn't enough. He looked at the teddy bear, they'd bought for their little boy - the day they'd found out they were having a boy. He sighed, they'd been so happy that day, so excited, so full of hope.
Chanyeol and Jongin had agreed on the name Jaehyun, which was now the most painful word for them to say, or think about. Jongin and Chanyeol loved their son, even though they lost him. They had to watch their friends have kids around them when they lost their beautiful boy. Chanyeol never mentioned it to their friends, and always managed to fake the smiles when meeting his friend's newborns, they all tried not to talk about babies too much but it was hard when you were first time parents and your child was young and doing new and amazing things every day. Chanyeol understood, but Jongin still came home upset when someone at work told him they were expecting. Jongin hadn't healed from the loss of Jaehyun and even though they'd been going to see a therapist to help them with the loss of their son, Chanyeol knew that it was still hard for Jongin to see other people going through the joy he'd felt before it had all gone wrong.
Chanyeol got up, he felt something was off, but he didn't know what. He walked to find Jongin, who was curled up on the bathroom floor crying. Chanyeol paused and then moved to scoop Jongin up into his arms. "What's going on Jongin?" Chanyeol said holding the other close, the sobs breaking his heart, he'd heard Jongin crying too much over the year since they'd lost Jaehyun. He just could never stop the tears, he didn't know if there was anything that would stop Jongin crying for their son. "Jongin, please, you're really worrying me." Chanyeol said, moving to hold Jongin so they were face to face.
"I'm pregnant." Jongin said before crying harder, burying his face into Chanyeol's shoulder. Chanyeol held Jongin close, he didn't know how he was supposed to act, he was happy to know that they were going to have a baby, but he knew that it was going to be hard. That they were going to have the joy of these moments of the pregnancy but that fear was always going to be there, that even when they thought everything was going well that it could all be taken away from them.
"Are you sure?" Chanyeol said quietly, kissing the top of Jongin's head, rubbing the other's back soothingly.
"I've taken 3 tests." he said before looking at Chanyeol, "we're pregnant again" he bit his lip and then took a deep breath trying to wipe his eyes and stop crying. "I'm supposed to be happy right, we're going to have a baby."
"Jongin, you're supposed to feel what you feel." Chanyeol said giving the other man a quick kiss, "and I can sense what you're feeling, I'm your alpha, and I want what's best for you and if you don't want-"
"Don't even think of saying it" Jongin said quietly, "I'm not even going to consider it. It's not happening." He said, Chanyeol couldn't help but smile, he was glad that they were going to keep the baby, and they were going to make it this time. He was going to do whatever he could to make sure that they didn't suffer the same loss again. But also this side of Jongin was something he hadn't seen since they'd lost Jaehyun, the feisty Jongin who knew what he wanted, it was something that Chanyeol missed greatly. He loved the other no matter what - they'd said for better or for worse and Chanyeol was pretty sure that you couldn't get much worse than what they'd been through together.
"Ok, we're going to get through this. I'll book you in for a doctors appointment." Chanyeol said with a small smile. He wanted to smile more, they were going to have a baby, but the worry was still there that it wasn't going to go the way it should do and he knew that Jongin was concerned about that too. He got up and helped Jongin up before going to make the call to make them an appointment. When he came back he found Jongin just sat with his back against the bath, staring at the pregnancy tests that he'd now laid on the floor.
Chanyeol stood in the doorway for a second and sighed, this wasn't how it should be. Jongin had been so excited when he'd gotten pregnant the first time and this time was going to be so different. He worried that his omega wasn't ready yet to try to have a baby, he'd been pretty sure that he didn't want to ever have kids.
It was difficult, Jongin was acting like nothing was happening, as if the news that they were going to have a baby wasn't something to be celebrating. It worried Chanyeol but he wasn't going to say something and end up starting a fight. Chanyeol had to keep the fact that he was really excited that they were going to be parents a secret. He knew that Jongin was really sensitive about it, and he'd woken up quite a few night to find Jongin sat in the nursery crying.
Jongin was taking very good care of himself, making sure he was taking all of his vitamins and doing everything the books tell you to do to ensure you have a good pregnancy. Chanyeol was beginning to think that the other was getting used to the idea that he was going to have a baby and that Jongin was starting to get more excited about it. Jongin didn't want to tell anyone, not even his parents that they were expecting a baby.
Chanyeol agreed, but when Jongin started showing he thought it was time they told everyone. "Look, baby, you know people are going to start guessing that you're pregnant. You're starting to show." He said while they were just sat watching the television together. "So maybe we should do something nice to tell everyone we're expecting a baby."
"I don't want to." Jongin said quietly, "We don't know that we're going to get a baby out of this."
"Jongin, the doctors told you it was a freak thing, it's not going to happen to this baby." Chanyeol said quietly. "We have to focus on this baby and everyone deserves to know about it."
"You want to focus on our new baby and not our dead child." Jongin said shaking his head and moving away from Chanyeol. "I lost our baby, and I could do it again with this one, maybe there is just something wrong with me, and I'm just not meant to have a child."
"Jongin, stop it, you know that's not true, it was a freak accident and Jaehyun didn't make it. You cannot punish this child for what happened back then." He said with a sigh, he knew it wasn't the right thing to say to his sensitive omega, but he couldn't help it.
"I'm not punishing our child. How dare you? I'm the one who is carrying our baby and keeping them safe and warm and letting them grow. Just because I don't want to tell everyone I'm pregnant does not make me an awful parent. You're the one who missed the doctors appointment a few weeks ago."
"I had a last minute meeting Jongin." He said with a small sigh, moving to try to face his partner to hopefully calm him down.
"I told you I didn't want a child."
"That isn't what we're talking about." Chanyeol said quietly.
"Yes it is! I didn't want to even try for a baby after we lost Jaehyun, you promised you were wearing something and you got me pregnant. I don't want to have a baby, I don't want to go through all that pain again and you want me to pretend I'm so happy. Do you know how happy I was when I was pregnant with Jaehyun, and now I'm just scared. I'm scared for our baby." Jongin said on the brink of tears, he moved to get up and go to his room, not before turning round and saying, "Don't come to bed tonight."
Chanyeol sighed as he sat back on the sofa, there was no point trying to argue with his partner about this. It was his fault, he should really have thought more about his partner's feelings but he was beginning to feel annoyed by how the other wasn't even trying to be happy about the baby they were expecting. He knew that Jongin was struggling with everything but he wished that he would at least tell someone - that would really help him be able to open up to more people about how he was feeling in regards to the baby.
Jongin was still working, wearing really baggy clothing and doing his best to hide his pregnancy, Chanyeol was sure that it wasn't easy and was a source of stress for his partner but after the fight they'd just had, he knew he couldn't bring it up again. He knew he had to give his pregnant partner some slack but he didn't want to hide their good news.
Chanyeol woke up the next morning to find Jongin in the kitchen making breakfast. Chanyeol walked in and gave Jongin a quick kiss. Jongin smiled - as if nothing had happened the night before. Chanyeol wasn't about to bring it up when his partner was clearly in a good mood. Jongin put the plate in front of Chanyeol and then sat with him as they ate. "My mom is coming next weekend. We can tell her then." Jongin said quietly.
"Only if you want to." Chanyeol said softly.
"Well she's going to feel it when she hugs me. Our little pea pod is getting too big for me to hide now."
"Pea pod?" Chanyeol said with a small smile.
"Yeah, Pea pod, that's what I've been calling it." Jongin shrugged getting up and going to wash the dishes. Even though he wasn't saying it Chanyeol could tell that the other was starting to come to terms with the whole thing and that he did love their baby. Even with what had happened in the past. They were going to be ok in the end, and this baby was really going to be good for them. He knew that Jongin would be able to cope with having this baby and raising it, even knowing that he would never get the chance to do it for Jaehyun. He was sure that this baby was going to make it, because Jaehyun was going to be watching over his younger sibling.
Pairing: Chanyeol/Jongin
Rating: R (themes)
Words: 2,000 w.
Warning: Mpreg, mentions of miscarriage, abo dynamics, hint at a suggestion of abortion
Summary: Jongin had said they weren’t going to try for a baby again.
Prompt #60
A/N: I’m so sorry there was supposed to be more of this fic but I ran out of time. I love the prompt and I’m really sorry it’s not completely finished, as I would have liked.
Chanyeol sighed, he was looking at the room he never took down. He secretly liked to come into the jungle-themed nursery. He liked to just sit in the chair by the window and look out, imagining what it would be like to be holding his son. He couldn't hold his son, and Jongin had told him they weren't going to be having a child. Jongin didn't want to get pregnant again and Chanyeol wanted to look after his omega, and after what had happened he wasn't going to put his omega through it all again. Jongin and him had done enough talking about it, and talking meant crying. Chanyeol's heart broke over and over again when he thought of his omega crying, he hated the sound of the other crying. He knew that there was nothing he could do to take away the pain that Jongin felt after losing a child. Jongin had always blamed himself, like it was his fault that there were complications in labour. He kept saying it was his fault, that if he'd been better then their child would have made it. But Chanyeol knew that wasn't true, that Jongin did everything in his power but it wasn't enough. He looked at the teddy bear, they'd bought for their little boy - the day they'd found out they were having a boy. He sighed, they'd been so happy that day, so excited, so full of hope.
Chanyeol and Jongin had agreed on the name Jaehyun, which was now the most painful word for them to say, or think about. Jongin and Chanyeol loved their son, even though they lost him. They had to watch their friends have kids around them when they lost their beautiful boy. Chanyeol never mentioned it to their friends, and always managed to fake the smiles when meeting his friend's newborns, they all tried not to talk about babies too much but it was hard when you were first time parents and your child was young and doing new and amazing things every day. Chanyeol understood, but Jongin still came home upset when someone at work told him they were expecting. Jongin hadn't healed from the loss of Jaehyun and even though they'd been going to see a therapist to help them with the loss of their son, Chanyeol knew that it was still hard for Jongin to see other people going through the joy he'd felt before it had all gone wrong.
Chanyeol got up, he felt something was off, but he didn't know what. He walked to find Jongin, who was curled up on the bathroom floor crying. Chanyeol paused and then moved to scoop Jongin up into his arms. "What's going on Jongin?" Chanyeol said holding the other close, the sobs breaking his heart, he'd heard Jongin crying too much over the year since they'd lost Jaehyun. He just could never stop the tears, he didn't know if there was anything that would stop Jongin crying for their son. "Jongin, please, you're really worrying me." Chanyeol said, moving to hold Jongin so they were face to face.
"I'm pregnant." Jongin said before crying harder, burying his face into Chanyeol's shoulder. Chanyeol held Jongin close, he didn't know how he was supposed to act, he was happy to know that they were going to have a baby, but he knew that it was going to be hard. That they were going to have the joy of these moments of the pregnancy but that fear was always going to be there, that even when they thought everything was going well that it could all be taken away from them.
"Are you sure?" Chanyeol said quietly, kissing the top of Jongin's head, rubbing the other's back soothingly.
"I've taken 3 tests." he said before looking at Chanyeol, "we're pregnant again" he bit his lip and then took a deep breath trying to wipe his eyes and stop crying. "I'm supposed to be happy right, we're going to have a baby."
"Jongin, you're supposed to feel what you feel." Chanyeol said giving the other man a quick kiss, "and I can sense what you're feeling, I'm your alpha, and I want what's best for you and if you don't want-"
"Don't even think of saying it" Jongin said quietly, "I'm not even going to consider it. It's not happening." He said, Chanyeol couldn't help but smile, he was glad that they were going to keep the baby, and they were going to make it this time. He was going to do whatever he could to make sure that they didn't suffer the same loss again. But also this side of Jongin was something he hadn't seen since they'd lost Jaehyun, the feisty Jongin who knew what he wanted, it was something that Chanyeol missed greatly. He loved the other no matter what - they'd said for better or for worse and Chanyeol was pretty sure that you couldn't get much worse than what they'd been through together.
"Ok, we're going to get through this. I'll book you in for a doctors appointment." Chanyeol said with a small smile. He wanted to smile more, they were going to have a baby, but the worry was still there that it wasn't going to go the way it should do and he knew that Jongin was concerned about that too. He got up and helped Jongin up before going to make the call to make them an appointment. When he came back he found Jongin just sat with his back against the bath, staring at the pregnancy tests that he'd now laid on the floor.
Chanyeol stood in the doorway for a second and sighed, this wasn't how it should be. Jongin had been so excited when he'd gotten pregnant the first time and this time was going to be so different. He worried that his omega wasn't ready yet to try to have a baby, he'd been pretty sure that he didn't want to ever have kids.
It was difficult, Jongin was acting like nothing was happening, as if the news that they were going to have a baby wasn't something to be celebrating. It worried Chanyeol but he wasn't going to say something and end up starting a fight. Chanyeol had to keep the fact that he was really excited that they were going to be parents a secret. He knew that Jongin was really sensitive about it, and he'd woken up quite a few night to find Jongin sat in the nursery crying.
Jongin was taking very good care of himself, making sure he was taking all of his vitamins and doing everything the books tell you to do to ensure you have a good pregnancy. Chanyeol was beginning to think that the other was getting used to the idea that he was going to have a baby and that Jongin was starting to get more excited about it. Jongin didn't want to tell anyone, not even his parents that they were expecting a baby.
Chanyeol agreed, but when Jongin started showing he thought it was time they told everyone. "Look, baby, you know people are going to start guessing that you're pregnant. You're starting to show." He said while they were just sat watching the television together. "So maybe we should do something nice to tell everyone we're expecting a baby."
"I don't want to." Jongin said quietly, "We don't know that we're going to get a baby out of this."
"Jongin, the doctors told you it was a freak thing, it's not going to happen to this baby." Chanyeol said quietly. "We have to focus on this baby and everyone deserves to know about it."
"You want to focus on our new baby and not our dead child." Jongin said shaking his head and moving away from Chanyeol. "I lost our baby, and I could do it again with this one, maybe there is just something wrong with me, and I'm just not meant to have a child."
"Jongin, stop it, you know that's not true, it was a freak accident and Jaehyun didn't make it. You cannot punish this child for what happened back then." He said with a sigh, he knew it wasn't the right thing to say to his sensitive omega, but he couldn't help it.
"I'm not punishing our child. How dare you? I'm the one who is carrying our baby and keeping them safe and warm and letting them grow. Just because I don't want to tell everyone I'm pregnant does not make me an awful parent. You're the one who missed the doctors appointment a few weeks ago."
"I had a last minute meeting Jongin." He said with a small sigh, moving to try to face his partner to hopefully calm him down.
"I told you I didn't want a child."
"That isn't what we're talking about." Chanyeol said quietly.
"Yes it is! I didn't want to even try for a baby after we lost Jaehyun, you promised you were wearing something and you got me pregnant. I don't want to have a baby, I don't want to go through all that pain again and you want me to pretend I'm so happy. Do you know how happy I was when I was pregnant with Jaehyun, and now I'm just scared. I'm scared for our baby." Jongin said on the brink of tears, he moved to get up and go to his room, not before turning round and saying, "Don't come to bed tonight."
Chanyeol sighed as he sat back on the sofa, there was no point trying to argue with his partner about this. It was his fault, he should really have thought more about his partner's feelings but he was beginning to feel annoyed by how the other wasn't even trying to be happy about the baby they were expecting. He knew that Jongin was struggling with everything but he wished that he would at least tell someone - that would really help him be able to open up to more people about how he was feeling in regards to the baby.
Jongin was still working, wearing really baggy clothing and doing his best to hide his pregnancy, Chanyeol was sure that it wasn't easy and was a source of stress for his partner but after the fight they'd just had, he knew he couldn't bring it up again. He knew he had to give his pregnant partner some slack but he didn't want to hide their good news.
Chanyeol woke up the next morning to find Jongin in the kitchen making breakfast. Chanyeol walked in and gave Jongin a quick kiss. Jongin smiled - as if nothing had happened the night before. Chanyeol wasn't about to bring it up when his partner was clearly in a good mood. Jongin put the plate in front of Chanyeol and then sat with him as they ate. "My mom is coming next weekend. We can tell her then." Jongin said quietly.
"Only if you want to." Chanyeol said softly.
"Well she's going to feel it when she hugs me. Our little pea pod is getting too big for me to hide now."
"Pea pod?" Chanyeol said with a small smile.
"Yeah, Pea pod, that's what I've been calling it." Jongin shrugged getting up and going to wash the dishes. Even though he wasn't saying it Chanyeol could tell that the other was starting to come to terms with the whole thing and that he did love their baby. Even with what had happened in the past. They were going to be ok in the end, and this baby was really going to be good for them. He knew that Jongin would be able to cope with having this baby and raising it, even knowing that he would never get the chance to do it for Jaehyun. He was sure that this baby was going to make it, because Jaehyun was going to be watching over his younger sibling.