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today i feel so terrible.
i woke up at 3 , again trying to sleep away as much of the day away as possible.
then i woke up , watched tv , went online , went back to bed , made a late lunch , then burned off more calories than i ate all day because of my extreme anxiety of weight right now. to add to everything , i feel alone . i feel like im being left in the dark about somthing & i know when i find out im going to be crushed. im trying to just escape the thoughts , but i can't. i keep finding myself trying to figure out what im going to do if i do find out. im probablly over reacting as usual . im just taking in alot at a time , & over thinking i suppose. im just upset. i don't like feeling like this.
anyway , i just figured i would update.
im pretty bored . . .
♥ love.
i woke up at 3 , again trying to sleep away as much of the day away as possible.
then i woke up , watched tv , went online , went back to bed , made a late lunch , then burned off more calories than i ate all day because of my extreme anxiety of weight right now. to add to everything , i feel alone . i feel like im being left in the dark about somthing & i know when i find out im going to be crushed. im trying to just escape the thoughts , but i can't. i keep finding myself trying to figure out what im going to do if i do find out. im probablly over reacting as usual . im just taking in alot at a time , & over thinking i suppose. im just upset. i don't like feeling like this.
anyway , i just figured i would update.
im pretty bored . . .
♥ love.