I've turned some of 'em down, and the others took another way around.
Brutal honesty? Okay.
FAIL.
I can't keep promises. There are so many people I've hurt and betrayed, people I love far too much to express in words, just because I can't (apparently) keep promises. Are there any excuses? Obviously, but at times like these excuses are just bullshit.
But you know, I've changed so much. I was hoping to return this summer, but that's just... what, two months? And then what. 9th grade. Lovely - and what will happen then?
It's as if there are two sides. If you join one, you cannot stay with the ones on the other side. And the other way around. So that's why you can't keep promises huh. It's all about excuses youkknow, keeping yourself away from people you want to be around but can't. Things you want to do but simply can't because it's all about responsibility and moral and all that bullshit.
So what if I'm a big part of this or that. So what if I'm counted on, so what if that's the place I want to be. What about this side, where I have far too many lovely friends. What's up with this mind. This or that. Two worlds, pretty much, two sides.
So I've implemented rules. Rules are there to keep one at bay, aye. Well, let's see how it works. (What are the consequences?)
1 - I say what I want to say and I don't care about what you think. FANDOM_SECRETS IS SCARY AND I CAN'T BELIEVE I'VE BEEN A PART OF THAT.
That's step one.
Is variation really all I need?
I hope you guys are well. I know my last attempt at sticking around failed, but this place is - to me - just a sea of masks, and I've not yet decided which one to pick. I'll be back as soon as I know :) I love you all. A lot.
♥
FAIL.
I can't keep promises. There are so many people I've hurt and betrayed, people I love far too much to express in words, just because I can't (apparently) keep promises. Are there any excuses? Obviously, but at times like these excuses are just bullshit.
But you know, I've changed so much. I was hoping to return this summer, but that's just... what, two months? And then what. 9th grade. Lovely - and what will happen then?
It's as if there are two sides. If you join one, you cannot stay with the ones on the other side. And the other way around. So that's why you can't keep promises huh. It's all about excuses youkknow, keeping yourself away from people you want to be around but can't. Things you want to do but simply can't because it's all about responsibility and moral and all that bullshit.
So what if I'm a big part of this or that. So what if I'm counted on, so what if that's the place I want to be. What about this side, where I have far too many lovely friends. What's up with this mind. This or that. Two worlds, pretty much, two sides.
So I've implemented rules. Rules are there to keep one at bay, aye. Well, let's see how it works. (What are the consequences?)
1 - I say what I want to say and I don't care about what you think. FANDOM_SECRETS IS SCARY AND I CAN'T BELIEVE I'VE BEEN A PART OF THAT.
That's step one.
Is variation really all I need?
I hope you guys are well. I know my last attempt at sticking around failed, but this place is - to me - just a sea of masks, and I've not yet decided which one to pick. I'll be back as soon as I know :) I love you all. A lot.
♥