systems up...activate progam.
what can i honestly say about last night. i mean,the situation was the same,but just a different location. the same thing day on and day out,i ask myself if this is all i live for. this is it,no fucking more!!! i hate being a slave to substance and feelings. i was born a feeling creature. there is no unlearning of this nature. it is a disturbing association in my mind, between feeling and weakness. it does present a vulnerability..... to pleasures! to pains! to grievance and rapture!! what other creatures know such things!!? im gonna find a way,to rid me of these emotions i don't need. fuck my feelings! i'm going to kill my stomach if I'm hungry! shut off my want if i'm lonely! tear off my genitals if i'm aroused!! excess!!! so much excess!! it's so much superfluous nonsense, and I want nothing to do with it if i can help it!!! no more feelings. no more stars. i wish someone would just switch me off and... fix me