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I don't know if I like hanging out with kids around my age who are away from their parents and not living in a dorm or something. They're all so low on cash and struggling to make payments even with roommates and everything.
And here I am. I'm pretty well off self-employed as I am and all. Really well off, actually. So on one hand talking to them makes me feel good, but then on the much larger hand, I feel like shit. I shouldn't. I paid a price for where I am today. Or at least I worked for it. While they were all busy dealing with high school, I was busy dealing with high school too. But being annoyed because I actually had goals and a plan to be carrying out while school got in the way. Hence being why I blew off my senior year and failed a good one third of my classes.
I dunno. I'm just babbling and am trying to reinforce to myself that I'm cool and a good person. It feels like such an attack on who I am when people talk about how much they're struggling. I don't know why. It's not, no where even close.
Oh well, it's time to get to bed. I have a headache and stuff from all the second hand smoke I've sucked down my lungs tonight.
And here I am. I'm pretty well off self-employed as I am and all. Really well off, actually. So on one hand talking to them makes me feel good, but then on the much larger hand, I feel like shit. I shouldn't. I paid a price for where I am today. Or at least I worked for it. While they were all busy dealing with high school, I was busy dealing with high school too. But being annoyed because I actually had goals and a plan to be carrying out while school got in the way. Hence being why I blew off my senior year and failed a good one third of my classes.
I dunno. I'm just babbling and am trying to reinforce to myself that I'm cool and a good person. It feels like such an attack on who I am when people talk about how much they're struggling. I don't know why. It's not, no where even close.
Oh well, it's time to get to bed. I have a headache and stuff from all the second hand smoke I've sucked down my lungs tonight.