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Okay, I think it may be safe to update now. I feel as though I'm myself again, and besides, no one reads this anymore. I didn't realize it would feel so strange to be writing in here again. To speak troth, I actually had to try to remember how to update. Give me a break; it's been five months!
I'm writing under a few conditions:
-No sad, complaining posts; only good news or my indifferent thoughts.
-No more than one post per day, and no exceptions to this rule. If ever I say something along the lines of, "I know I said only one post a day, but..." or anything to that effect, that will be the surest sign of my renewed dependency upon livejournal, and will be grounds for deleting this blog altogether.
-No dependency on this stupid thing for creative outlet; I may choose to post a poem now and again, but this cannot become my primary venue.
This one's a bit strange:
-No relationships based on livejournal: i don't want to waste my time on people with whom I will otherwise never meet/converse, or with someone from whom I will not benefit. If you do not intend to have a fulfilling, symbiotic friendship or relationship with me, please do not comment.
-I must use proper spelling, punctuation, capitalization, etc. on my journal. I do not condone ignorance or desecration of the English language--written or spoken--and will not partake in such activities as slang, ebonics, etc.
That said, if anyone catches me breaking a rule, let me know. If I catch myself, I'm cutting myself off again. I don't need any sources of negative energy or addiction in my life, which is basically what livejournal was before. I've turned over a new leaf, so to speak: having theorized, and dabbled in my own philosophical ideas--for which I must give partial credit to Ayn Rand's novels and texts, and which a certain friend of mine refers to as the "Feel Good Revolution"--I have basically stopped being "depressed." This is not to say that I had any type of chemical condition or anything; I fact, I have discovered that I do not even believe in depression as any type of physical vice. Rather, it is an excuse, and a crutch, used to justify negativity by those who crave it. If you think you are "depressed", you are a victim of the greatest hoax of all humanity. You are a gullible and, in a sense, spineless person. You have surrendered your spirit and optimism because someone told you that you cannot help it. My advice is simply to stop looking at yourself as a sad person, and just to be happy. It really is that simple. Try giving up your livejournal for a while--it worked for me. These things are magnets for individuals who want to be sad, to be noticed, to be pitied, because they are so unsure of themselves that they need to be consoled by online acquaintances. For instance, livejournal became a normal part of my day. Checking and/or updating my journal upwards of 3 times a day was not uncommon, as I'm sure it is not for many of you. Eventually, I began to go to my computer thinking, "What bad things can I write about today? What do I have to be upset about?" It was a reason to dwell and focus on negativity. Hence, livejournal promotes negativity, which many people mistake for "depression." This mentality is EVIL, my friends, innately evil. Life is too short to waste at a computer, concentrating on ways to squeeze faux-pity and <3's out of my friends. This is the reason I have abjured my online journal since January the fourteenth. This is the reason I refuse to enter the community of Myspace. It is the reason I have set limits and conditions on my blogging. If there are any of you whom I have offended, I extend my apologies. It is not my place to tell you how to live, or whether or not to write in an online journal. If you disagree with any of my statements, views, opinions, etc. please feel free to argue with me. I love arguing, but I hate quarreling. Enough of this. See? Look how much time I'm wasting on this entry. I ought to be enjoying myself outside...Maybe I'll wash my car later. It's such a beautiful day!
P.S. While we're talking about my disputed beliefs, I want to point out that I also am not convinced that time exists, but that's a whole other post.
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On to the good news!
I finally met a girl I really, really like, and she actually likes me back! Her name is Sara D'Eugenio, and she is so beautiful and fun that I just want to jump for joy! It seems all my waiting for the ideal girl and my abstinence from any relationships over the past eleven months or so may have finally paid off. I spent the evening with her yesterday, and we plan to do the same tonight. She makes me feel really special, and I hope I make her feel the same.
I begin work at HITT again tomorrow. Yes, full-time. Yes, it's the same company as last summer. No, I will not be working in the field as a laborer. No, I will not allow any job to bring me down to the level of unhappiness I so willingly submitted to last time around. This summer, I'll be working in an office as an intern. I'll have to wear a tie and slacks to work every day, but at least I don't have to wear a hard-hat. I'll have to be at work in Fairfax at 7:30, but that's much better than being in Reston by 6:00. I think I'm much better suited in an air-conditioned office environment than the "field" as it's called. Actually, I'm quite excited to begin working there.
I graduated last Saturday, and it feels great!
Maniac Magee is making headway, as far as recording, practicing, and all around ass-kicking. We have a show at Brittany Justice's house this Saturday, and one at Stuart Hunnicutt's the following weekend. We also gave in and got ourselves a Myspace (It's not for me, but for the band--promotion, etc.), and a Soundclick. I don't know how to insert a link, but you can copy and paste the following URLs if you wish. Thanks go to Sara D. and SD Designs for the Myspace background.
MYSPACE: http://www.myspace.com/knotmaster
SOUNDCLICK: http://www.soundclick.com/bands/4/maniacmagee.htm
If you have a Myspace, as I'm sure you probably do, add us to your Friends list, and someone please tell me how to request to be added to someone else's list. I'm quite inept, as far as Myspace is concerned.
That's all I'm writing for today. There's much more to say, but I've spent a long time at my computer, and I'm getting sick of typing. Now, I'm off to clean my room and wait for Sara to call. I love spending time with her.
Goodbye!
With much love and best wishes,
Louis Wesley Cyrtmus
I'm writing under a few conditions:
-No sad, complaining posts; only good news or my indifferent thoughts.
-No more than one post per day, and no exceptions to this rule. If ever I say something along the lines of, "I know I said only one post a day, but..." or anything to that effect, that will be the surest sign of my renewed dependency upon livejournal, and will be grounds for deleting this blog altogether.
-No dependency on this stupid thing for creative outlet; I may choose to post a poem now and again, but this cannot become my primary venue.
This one's a bit strange:
-No relationships based on livejournal: i don't want to waste my time on people with whom I will otherwise never meet/converse, or with someone from whom I will not benefit. If you do not intend to have a fulfilling, symbiotic friendship or relationship with me, please do not comment.
-I must use proper spelling, punctuation, capitalization, etc. on my journal. I do not condone ignorance or desecration of the English language--written or spoken--and will not partake in such activities as slang, ebonics, etc.
That said, if anyone catches me breaking a rule, let me know. If I catch myself, I'm cutting myself off again. I don't need any sources of negative energy or addiction in my life, which is basically what livejournal was before. I've turned over a new leaf, so to speak: having theorized, and dabbled in my own philosophical ideas--for which I must give partial credit to Ayn Rand's novels and texts, and which a certain friend of mine refers to as the "Feel Good Revolution"--I have basically stopped being "depressed." This is not to say that I had any type of chemical condition or anything; I fact, I have discovered that I do not even believe in depression as any type of physical vice. Rather, it is an excuse, and a crutch, used to justify negativity by those who crave it. If you think you are "depressed", you are a victim of the greatest hoax of all humanity. You are a gullible and, in a sense, spineless person. You have surrendered your spirit and optimism because someone told you that you cannot help it. My advice is simply to stop looking at yourself as a sad person, and just to be happy. It really is that simple. Try giving up your livejournal for a while--it worked for me. These things are magnets for individuals who want to be sad, to be noticed, to be pitied, because they are so unsure of themselves that they need to be consoled by online acquaintances. For instance, livejournal became a normal part of my day. Checking and/or updating my journal upwards of 3 times a day was not uncommon, as I'm sure it is not for many of you. Eventually, I began to go to my computer thinking, "What bad things can I write about today? What do I have to be upset about?" It was a reason to dwell and focus on negativity. Hence, livejournal promotes negativity, which many people mistake for "depression." This mentality is EVIL, my friends, innately evil. Life is too short to waste at a computer, concentrating on ways to squeeze faux-pity and <3's out of my friends. This is the reason I have abjured my online journal since January the fourteenth. This is the reason I refuse to enter the community of Myspace. It is the reason I have set limits and conditions on my blogging. If there are any of you whom I have offended, I extend my apologies. It is not my place to tell you how to live, or whether or not to write in an online journal. If you disagree with any of my statements, views, opinions, etc. please feel free to argue with me. I love arguing, but I hate quarreling. Enough of this. See? Look how much time I'm wasting on this entry. I ought to be enjoying myself outside...Maybe I'll wash my car later. It's such a beautiful day!
P.S. While we're talking about my disputed beliefs, I want to point out that I also am not convinced that time exists, but that's a whole other post.
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On to the good news!
I finally met a girl I really, really like, and she actually likes me back! Her name is Sara D'Eugenio, and she is so beautiful and fun that I just want to jump for joy! It seems all my waiting for the ideal girl and my abstinence from any relationships over the past eleven months or so may have finally paid off. I spent the evening with her yesterday, and we plan to do the same tonight. She makes me feel really special, and I hope I make her feel the same.
I begin work at HITT again tomorrow. Yes, full-time. Yes, it's the same company as last summer. No, I will not be working in the field as a laborer. No, I will not allow any job to bring me down to the level of unhappiness I so willingly submitted to last time around. This summer, I'll be working in an office as an intern. I'll have to wear a tie and slacks to work every day, but at least I don't have to wear a hard-hat. I'll have to be at work in Fairfax at 7:30, but that's much better than being in Reston by 6:00. I think I'm much better suited in an air-conditioned office environment than the "field" as it's called. Actually, I'm quite excited to begin working there.
I graduated last Saturday, and it feels great!
Maniac Magee is making headway, as far as recording, practicing, and all around ass-kicking. We have a show at Brittany Justice's house this Saturday, and one at Stuart Hunnicutt's the following weekend. We also gave in and got ourselves a Myspace (It's not for me, but for the band--promotion, etc.), and a Soundclick. I don't know how to insert a link, but you can copy and paste the following URLs if you wish. Thanks go to Sara D. and SD Designs for the Myspace background.
MYSPACE: http://www.myspace.com/knotmaster
SOUNDCLICK: http://www.soundclick.com/bands/4/maniacmagee.htm
If you have a Myspace, as I'm sure you probably do, add us to your Friends list, and someone please tell me how to request to be added to someone else's list. I'm quite inept, as far as Myspace is concerned.
That's all I'm writing for today. There's much more to say, but I've spent a long time at my computer, and I'm getting sick of typing. Now, I'm off to clean my room and wait for Sara to call. I love spending time with her.
Goodbye!
With much love and best wishes,
Louis Wesley Cyrtmus