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i hate saying stuff like this, because it makes me sound like the asshole i actually am, but i'm getting sick of smiling at everyone. at school, in the hallways, all these little freshmen girls call my name, and i look around to find the one whos waving at me...im too nice to give them a weird look, so i smile and wave back...what makes you think you should make me turn around? if we've never hung out and we never talk, and maybe i dont even know your name...why would you act otherwise? jesus christ...i understand that a bunch of underclassmen have some group crush on me, and im flattered, but enough is e-fucking-nough. don't get the wrong impression...if youre reading my journal, chances are i know you, and i love seeing people i know in the halls. if we talk, or have ever talked, feel free to say hi. otherwise, back off. please. another thing that gets on my nerves are girls who want hugs all the fucking time...every time i see them, they expect a hug. again, if we're good friends, then yeah. hugs. thats fine. but again, if you dont know anything besides my name and what lunch i have then...no hugs. my apologies, im ranting. im in a bad mood, and im tired and grouchy. that doesnt mean im not serious about this; im rather exhausted with the whole thing. im going to sleep. ill probably get on later and apologize for all this when im in a better mood. rest assured, i won't mean it if i do.