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i dont remember things in order.
the temple was divine.
death, fear, then I tell myself I need to be strong. I become strong without
noticing the transition, a
a giving in
to leaving behind the only reality i've ever remembered knowing
everything becomes fractals before I leave reality completely
being guided kind of through different stages of crazy beyond
almost dancing tauntingly itself an overtly sexual fractalic being dances and peaks out of the symmetry
then i'm
looking up at a constantly morphing tunnel of otherworldly energies
sometimes pillar or temple or pyramid-like
sometimes beings twisting up into the abyss of infinite possibility
towards even further reaches than i could possibly fathom or imagine
and I giggled and made twisted faces in wonder at how much it defied the reality I'd always known
as I slowly knew I was returning to my body
and the reality it's anchored to,
the tunnel/temple/energy pillars became a womb-like blanket wrapping around me
and I was back in the world of the mundane,
somewhat disoriented and
much older than when I left,
and with a vague map to some kind of inner greatness
i know now that there is far more to what exists than inside this reality
how far I can or am destined to go is yet to be seen
but having glimpsed a shard of the realms far beyond human comprehension
is strangely comforting
i know this is divine
the temple was divine.
death, fear, then I tell myself I need to be strong. I become strong without
noticing the transition, a
a giving in
to leaving behind the only reality i've ever remembered knowing
everything becomes fractals before I leave reality completely
being guided kind of through different stages of crazy beyond
almost dancing tauntingly itself an overtly sexual fractalic being dances and peaks out of the symmetry
then i'm
looking up at a constantly morphing tunnel of otherworldly energies
sometimes pillar or temple or pyramid-like
sometimes beings twisting up into the abyss of infinite possibility
towards even further reaches than i could possibly fathom or imagine
and I giggled and made twisted faces in wonder at how much it defied the reality I'd always known
as I slowly knew I was returning to my body
and the reality it's anchored to,
the tunnel/temple/energy pillars became a womb-like blanket wrapping around me
and I was back in the world of the mundane,
somewhat disoriented and
much older than when I left,
and with a vague map to some kind of inner greatness
i know now that there is far more to what exists than inside this reality
how far I can or am destined to go is yet to be seen
but having glimpsed a shard of the realms far beyond human comprehension
is strangely comforting
i know this is divine