Warning: Overload!
Great. I'm gonna take my new shiny LJ's virginity by moaning and groaning... I suggest you skip this entry unless you enjoy whine-y people. :P
I'm just feeling stressed out! I feel like I'm being ripped to every possible direction: on the other hand I should be getting ready for my 3 days exam thingy on June, but then again I should finish off my other school AND also handle my summer job. Like that wasn't enough my family seems to be needing my help all the time: dad asked me to help him with his job and mom constantly needs me with anything that relatively has something to do with computers, internet or websites. When it's not a banner to be made, it's a website. When it's not a website, it's something else.
And then there's my boyfriend... I'll even start a new chapter for him. We're sort of starting off our own business and he got the inspiration to make a website for it now. Why NOW?! There's so much stuff in my mind and work to be done that I just can't deal with that website at the moment, yet I do understand he needs my input on things. It just frustrates me how he doesn't have a summer job, his school ended over 3 weeks ago and he just basically has nothing else to do than sit around... So he doesn't understand how stressed I am and gets upset if I tell him I just can't negotiate about our website right now. There's no rush to make it anyway.
It's not only my family who I'm upset with; I'm not any more happy with myself. I'm dealing with my stress just the way I've always done: I brush it off my mind and focus on other, irrelevant things. I make icons, layouts and codes for my fanlistings, clean the house, watch stupid TV programs I normally wouldn't watch... The conclusion: my family, studies and job have very little to do with anything - it's me who's creating the stress by not doing what I should have been doing for the past few months. Okie. End of rant.
I'm just feeling stressed out! I feel like I'm being ripped to every possible direction: on the other hand I should be getting ready for my 3 days exam thingy on June, but then again I should finish off my other school AND also handle my summer job. Like that wasn't enough my family seems to be needing my help all the time: dad asked me to help him with his job and mom constantly needs me with anything that relatively has something to do with computers, internet or websites. When it's not a banner to be made, it's a website. When it's not a website, it's something else.
And then there's my boyfriend... I'll even start a new chapter for him. We're sort of starting off our own business and he got the inspiration to make a website for it now. Why NOW?! There's so much stuff in my mind and work to be done that I just can't deal with that website at the moment, yet I do understand he needs my input on things. It just frustrates me how he doesn't have a summer job, his school ended over 3 weeks ago and he just basically has nothing else to do than sit around... So he doesn't understand how stressed I am and gets upset if I tell him I just can't negotiate about our website right now. There's no rush to make it anyway.
It's not only my family who I'm upset with; I'm not any more happy with myself. I'm dealing with my stress just the way I've always done: I brush it off my mind and focus on other, irrelevant things. I make icons, layouts and codes for my fanlistings, clean the house, watch stupid TV programs I normally wouldn't watch... The conclusion: my family, studies and job have very little to do with anything - it's me who's creating the stress by not doing what I should have been doing for the past few months. Okie. End of rant.