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Well, I started work last night/this morning. From 10-10. But I wanted to get their early, so technically I was there from like 9:30-10ish. It was only an extra half hour... But it felt like an extra 2 hours. Time went by sooooo slowly. It was horrible. That night was like one big place to beat me down. That place is like... a clash with my personality. And the things I have to do and what goes on, with my OCD, drives me insane in seconds. The only thing that made it bearable in the end was the other person there. Who I learned that at first, or for half the night, thought I was a stoner. When I first walked in she thought I was a crack addict too. ::Sighs::. But then I guess after we talked and whatnot she got to like me and everything, I guess. But, there is quite a bit of cleaning to do. That isn't so bad, except for cleaning the toilits... Which this one, horrible guy, who takes different kinds of laxatives, makes too much of a mess... Which I'll have to clean... Ick. I have to clean a lot of that house. That part isn't so bad. It is more than alright with me. Other than the fact that that one horrible guy likes to try and get away with a lot of stuff and was said to try and walk out and leave the house somewhere sometimes. So it is difficult to clean and vacume or whatever and listen out and watch out for him. This one guy there, who has Alzheimer's and Down syndrome, I guess usually takes a couple of months to get used to people, didn't need to take much of any time to get used to me. I guess he usually tries and kisses people he likes, well, he kissed me, I had to turn my head so it was on the cheek... That was horrifying. He also had me put him to bed, which just consists of putting the blankets on him. But it gets old and dumb, since he only stays there for not even 10 minutes. He is sad to leave alone sometimes too, since he likes to steal things and hord them in him room. It is very very boring there, when I am not dealing with them. So when I actually have free time, I have to deal with the thought of all that crap going on, and how little time went by so far, and how so much time is left, and all the other things in my head. And trying so hard to not fall asleep, The temprature changes to cold, when I get warm somewhere makes it really hard to stay awake. I had to see 3 different guys junk... Freaking horrible. Old, fat, not good looking guys.. Ohhh, my head... In the morning I have to give 2 of them a shower. Grr... Head hurts. But at least the girl there that was with me, or "taining" me, said that if there was ever a day I didn't want to work for any reason or whatever, I could call her and she said she would go in and cover for me or whatever, then gave me her phone number, of course. So that is cool. But I wouldn't want to do that much of course. But if I ever needed to, it is good to know that someone will help me out there. Plus the manager is really nice. He does what he has to do and everything, but he is nice, not an asshole or anything, which is good. But there is just so much that goes on and went on... It just drove me mad for a while. I got home and was like shit inside. I just wanted to open my door to my room and see Melissa there or something and get a biggggg hug, and then get a nap. I tried to sleep when I got home, only got about 20 minutes, then I just couldn't for some reason... I don't think I will be sleeping at all before I have to go back to work tonight. Which is a bad idea, but I don't feel like I can sleep right now, but I feel really tired, which just spells disaster for tonight, for sure... I am going to hate it... I want a hug. Well, I guess I am done with this post for now. I am sure I'll post again probably tomorrow, since no computer there until I can buy a laptop...