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Well, it has been some time since I've updated. So many things have changed. I don't know what to think about anything anymore. I don't know why it happened, but I just needed to be on my own for a little while. I really hope me and Joz can still talk and be friends. I need to still be able to talk to her, I still love her, I just needed this. Geeze life is so damn rough at times. I know Joslyn hates me, I just hope she doesn't forever. What she's said to me has just hurt so much... I know I hurt her, but I just don't think I could handle it again right now. After she broke up with me last time I just needed some time for me this time. I want so badly to still be there for her and to still talk to her, but she told me she hates me, she said fuck you, she said she never wants to talk to me again. What maybe hurt the most was that she said that shes sorry that she wasted the past year and a half with me. I don't know what to think anymore. Joslyn I love you, I always will, please look into your heart and find some way to forgive me.