ive got too much to say. and not enough words to say it with.
i painstakingly listened to each lyric trying to find some simple... or even better dreadfully complicated answer to everything. i wanted so desperately to stumble upon a revelation a mind blowing realization to everything. to have all the answers spill out from my tiny ear pieces.
but it was driving southwest into an early morning storm with petals of snow drifting over head and the sleet giving me a run for my money that i realized. i don't want answers. i want right now. i want this second. i want to walk through everything using every sense i own. i want to touch and taste and feel and smell and see and hear... well as best as i can.
i spend so much of this second worrying about the seconds that haven't even come. and quite truthfully may never. i want all dreadful thoughts and un-naive intuitions to fall back and let the snow flakes silently pile over me without outside interruptions.
its mornings like this that help me remember why i love so deeply. its the tingle of the last vestiges of a winter storm that is trying its very best to bring spring home.