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So, today I stumbled upon a friend's old online journal (it wasn't a livejournal) and it dated back really far. Like, to 2003. It wasn't private so I started reading it and now I feel really strange. Like I've done something I shouldn't have. It's a really odd feeling. Going back in this person's life to before I knew them. And as I kept reading, it felt like they just kept getting a little further away.
Like, for a moment it felt like I was reading about someone who didn't exist. And for a second I got scared that they weren't real. Like they disappeared out of my life or something. I know that sounds stupid. It scared me though, made me feel so lonely for a second.
I can't explain this feeling. It makes me feel kind of meloncholy and nostalgic all at once. But it's like I'm nostalgic for this person. Because I wasn't even in any of the entries. It was before they even knew of my existance. Does this make any sense?
This whole day has been so surreal.
Like, for a moment it felt like I was reading about someone who didn't exist. And for a second I got scared that they weren't real. Like they disappeared out of my life or something. I know that sounds stupid. It scared me though, made me feel so lonely for a second.
I can't explain this feeling. It makes me feel kind of meloncholy and nostalgic all at once. But it's like I'm nostalgic for this person. Because I wasn't even in any of the entries. It was before they even knew of my existance. Does this make any sense?
This whole day has been so surreal.