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'm probably not going to be around a computer much these next couple weeks, but i'll at least check in and let everyone know i'm alive so no one worries =) ryan's got a HECTIC school/work schedual this semester, and it's KILLING me. he's gone from 8:30am until 10pm 4 days a week for school (mon-thurs), has off friday but sleeps in until aiden gets home from school at noon..then we have to run about 6 thousand errands because i don't drive only ryan does, then saturday and sunday he sleeps until 4pm and goes to work at 530pm until 730am. it's been rediculously hard. i seriously feel like a single parent most days.
i know aiden goes to pre-k and everything, but while he's gone i'm cooking, cleaning, doing laundry, grocery shopping, etc..so it's not like i really get much time to myself.
HOWEVER i have to say that having FINALLY gotten my hair the way i wanted it from the start has been a major boost in my self esteem. i've been taking alot better care of myself since i feel great about how i look, fat or not lol. i've been getting my nails done, doing face masks daily, showering everyday (i know it's gross but alot of times i have horrible motivation with self care issues so ALL this stuff is amazing to me) and styling/blow drying/ using product in my hair, putting lotion and perfume on. i seriously feel like the old me from college is back, and that's when i was most true to myself.
my in-laws took that away from me for a good 6 years (long story, if you wanna know you can ask and i'll explain but i'm sure the general populous doesn't care lol) and i've finally cut ALL ties with them and feel truely free again. i know this all may sound silly to you girls, but it's life altering for me. i'm even wearing colors besides black! mostly just sticking to hot pink and black or fire engine red and black, but hey it's a start right?
now that i've written a novel i'll start reading what you all have written.
oh, one more thing =) i got a total med overhaul. i'm on a lower dose of geodon, 40mg 2x a day, 60mg cymbalta, .5mg klonopin 2x a day, 10mg ambien (the ONLY sleeping med that works for me), and 400mg of tramadol daily for a major knee injury resulting from being a pedestrian hit by a car. thankfully the paranoid about the meds killing me has just about completely gone away. i feel ALIVE and WONDERFUL right now =)
HAIR:
the bangs are black, the front is purple (dark), and the back is RED! LOVE LOVE LOVE it!