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the last thing i sent to you was "can i call you? i need it."
no reply. i sat and waited for two hours. no reply. i needed it.
i hate today.
i can't go to church this morning because i am too angry.
angry with Him. angry with myself. angry.
when i got home last night i fell to my knees and cried.
i wanted to scream. "why? why? why? why? WHY?"
i balled my fists and held my breath and thought about how unhealthy it was.
yes, you've been gone for a year. no, i can't handle it.
i think about you constantly. constantly.
sometimes i even forget that you're gone.
dial 905-723-0...fuck.
the it comes. and i feel sick to my stomach.
i just wish you were still here.
dear grandma ruby law;
i miss you more with each day you're gone.
remember the llamas? remember the easter balloon baskets?
i do. and i'll never forget.
one year ago today, my heart broke when God took the most important woman away.
i wish you were here to see how much we've grown. to see how happy we are.
although, i probably wouldn't have this sweet tattoo, which reminds me of you daily.
i miss you. i love you and i'll see you later.
♥
no reply. i sat and waited for two hours. no reply. i needed it.
i hate today.
i can't go to church this morning because i am too angry.
angry with Him. angry with myself. angry.
when i got home last night i fell to my knees and cried.
i wanted to scream. "why? why? why? why? WHY?"
i balled my fists and held my breath and thought about how unhealthy it was.
yes, you've been gone for a year. no, i can't handle it.
i think about you constantly. constantly.
sometimes i even forget that you're gone.
dial 905-723-0...fuck.
the it comes. and i feel sick to my stomach.
i just wish you were still here.
dear grandma ruby law;
i miss you more with each day you're gone.
remember the llamas? remember the easter balloon baskets?
i do. and i'll never forget.
one year ago today, my heart broke when God took the most important woman away.
i wish you were here to see how much we've grown. to see how happy we are.
although, i probably wouldn't have this sweet tattoo, which reminds me of you daily.
i miss you. i love you and i'll see you later.
♥