LAST
It's been 400 plus days of test's
It was me at my best
My mind at its worst
Seen the cold dead eyes of death
Saw the hope in a child's smile
I fought the good fight
We lost a hero on the Eve of Christmas Night
But his memory lives on in my heart
As do the thing's I've learned
See, the mind can be burned
By all the evils of life
But with one swift turn
Those lessons can change from strife
To lesson's of how good we have it
I now understand that if you chase the white rabbit
You will catch him soon enough
You just have to keep up stride when it's tough
Thats what life is
A chase for ourselves
A chase for our reason
A chase for our peace
I had a dream
A dream of a world with no war
No more
People were happy, smiles came in hordes
We all lived like kings and queens
No one came with more material things
Evryone was with everyone
All were friends, no enemy's
No reason to be
You had yours and they had it to
N when I woke up to find out none of it was true
I decided I would do what I had to do
To make this "Dream" Come true
Yep, I did it. The only thing I have ever finished in my life that I can say was worth it. I got a e-mail goin out to all the people on my list and it will have a video and a bunch of pics and I just wanted to say thanks to all those of you who have read my constant chatter about the bullshit in my life. Especially want to thank you Mel. You have been on my mind since I left and you have never strayed even when I told you you should because my life was a mess. I just owe you so much that I will do my best to repay you anyway I can. I never knew what love was till I met you and now I see that you are what it is. When I get back to Germany I will be happier then I have been in my life. I know that it will be the same no matter how much we have changed. I want to see your smile. I want to kiss your lips. I want to touch your hand. I want to be in your company and thats what love is 2 me. I won't hide anything from you again that I swear.
Iraq- A place you go to help others but in reality it helped me. Now I can move forward and be the person I was born to be. See Mom, even though I wasn't the most planned for thing in life and even though you and Dad didn't stay together you have created 3 very beautifull people with more love and more compassion then I bet you could have ever dreamed. Bet you didn't think your son would attempt to bring peace to a country did you? In reality I would not have wanted to be raised any other way. It has made me me. Now, after all these years, I can say I am happy with myself. I may have some wild hair. I may be a little small. I may be not the smartest of people alive, But I am me and thats all that matters.
Ahhhh but don't think I don't think the same about all of you. I read these journals and I see that they are looks into your souls. You express yourselves in ways you could never do it in Real World, so you come on the net to your little LJ and you type out what your soul wants to express. I have met some really cool people here. And I bet you can say the same about other people you've met here.
Now I got bunch to do when I go home so I got to go and plan so if you get the e-mail I hope you read it. If you don't reply with your e-mail and I'll send it to you. Nothing but love to all of you. I hope your life is even half as happy as mine. You will be living in the clouds if it is.
It was me at my best
My mind at its worst
Seen the cold dead eyes of death
Saw the hope in a child's smile
I fought the good fight
We lost a hero on the Eve of Christmas Night
But his memory lives on in my heart
As do the thing's I've learned
See, the mind can be burned
By all the evils of life
But with one swift turn
Those lessons can change from strife
To lesson's of how good we have it
I now understand that if you chase the white rabbit
You will catch him soon enough
You just have to keep up stride when it's tough
Thats what life is
A chase for ourselves
A chase for our reason
A chase for our peace
I had a dream
A dream of a world with no war
No more
People were happy, smiles came in hordes
We all lived like kings and queens
No one came with more material things
Evryone was with everyone
All were friends, no enemy's
No reason to be
You had yours and they had it to
N when I woke up to find out none of it was true
I decided I would do what I had to do
To make this "Dream" Come true
Yep, I did it. The only thing I have ever finished in my life that I can say was worth it. I got a e-mail goin out to all the people on my list and it will have a video and a bunch of pics and I just wanted to say thanks to all those of you who have read my constant chatter about the bullshit in my life. Especially want to thank you Mel. You have been on my mind since I left and you have never strayed even when I told you you should because my life was a mess. I just owe you so much that I will do my best to repay you anyway I can. I never knew what love was till I met you and now I see that you are what it is. When I get back to Germany I will be happier then I have been in my life. I know that it will be the same no matter how much we have changed. I want to see your smile. I want to kiss your lips. I want to touch your hand. I want to be in your company and thats what love is 2 me. I won't hide anything from you again that I swear.
Iraq- A place you go to help others but in reality it helped me. Now I can move forward and be the person I was born to be. See Mom, even though I wasn't the most planned for thing in life and even though you and Dad didn't stay together you have created 3 very beautifull people with more love and more compassion then I bet you could have ever dreamed. Bet you didn't think your son would attempt to bring peace to a country did you? In reality I would not have wanted to be raised any other way. It has made me me. Now, after all these years, I can say I am happy with myself. I may have some wild hair. I may be a little small. I may be not the smartest of people alive, But I am me and thats all that matters.
Ahhhh but don't think I don't think the same about all of you. I read these journals and I see that they are looks into your souls. You express yourselves in ways you could never do it in Real World, so you come on the net to your little LJ and you type out what your soul wants to express. I have met some really cool people here. And I bet you can say the same about other people you've met here.
Now I got bunch to do when I go home so I got to go and plan so if you get the e-mail I hope you read it. If you don't reply with your e-mail and I'll send it to you. Nothing but love to all of you. I hope your life is even half as happy as mine. You will be living in the clouds if it is.