my day, feelings, realizations
well, today i went over to my dads house and painted some windows, we've been working on fixing them for a month or two.
then i went over to LM's house, hung out there for what seemed like for ever. one of her male followers, J, came over. i really don't know how i feel about that guy. i mean, hes a nice guy, maybe a little too nice. hes not her type though. no matter what, this is all my speculation, doesnt matter. i dont like her and him together. but that doesn't really suprise me. i'm really protective of her. in a good way i think.
i decided that LM and i's relationship is going to be whatever it is going to be. trying to make it come about to something that it isn't, is only going to lead to trouble. i don't even feel like our current relationship is lacking, or that i need to have her as my girlfriend. i just flat out unconditionally love the girl, and she loves me, so whatever relationship we have, i know we will have to the fullest. thats all love is about anyway, thats all i need.
then afterward, me, LM, MJ (LM's house mate) and J went over to JBo's house for their party. LM and i were both really not feeling the party atmosphere. she felt kinda like drinking, but not beer. all they had was a keg. i'm still not drinking.. and we both felt pretty sad, although neither of us could find the right words to describe exactly what it was. so the four of us ended up leaving, and going back to their place again, after only an hour. we watched "Silence of the Lambs" and LM and J kinda cuddled together. after it was over, i left. i was, maybe, relieved? that laney decided to get up, and sleep in her bed by herself when i left, and left J with MJ.
ok, time to sleep.
then i went over to LM's house, hung out there for what seemed like for ever. one of her male followers, J, came over. i really don't know how i feel about that guy. i mean, hes a nice guy, maybe a little too nice. hes not her type though. no matter what, this is all my speculation, doesnt matter. i dont like her and him together. but that doesn't really suprise me. i'm really protective of her. in a good way i think.
i decided that LM and i's relationship is going to be whatever it is going to be. trying to make it come about to something that it isn't, is only going to lead to trouble. i don't even feel like our current relationship is lacking, or that i need to have her as my girlfriend. i just flat out unconditionally love the girl, and she loves me, so whatever relationship we have, i know we will have to the fullest. thats all love is about anyway, thats all i need.
then afterward, me, LM, MJ (LM's house mate) and J went over to JBo's house for their party. LM and i were both really not feeling the party atmosphere. she felt kinda like drinking, but not beer. all they had was a keg. i'm still not drinking.. and we both felt pretty sad, although neither of us could find the right words to describe exactly what it was. so the four of us ended up leaving, and going back to their place again, after only an hour. we watched "Silence of the Lambs" and LM and J kinda cuddled together. after it was over, i left. i was, maybe, relieved? that laney decided to get up, and sleep in her bed by herself when i left, and left J with MJ.
ok, time to sleep.