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Lately I've been thinking alot about my past relationships and how now of them ever work out. I can honestly say that the past week I've been kinda low in the whole self-worth department and decided I want a relationship. One I wont fuck up, because I'm sick of working myself up and hurt others. Anyway there aren't many people around ehre I'd even consider dating. Come to think of it there's really only two people I'd consider. They both live to far away and wont date me. The ones an ex boyfriend and i probably shouldn't have said anything but I guess it was worthe a shot. He's totally amazing though, his sensce of humor, very intelligent, emotional, supportive and extremly caring. There are so many things I miss, but its my fault and I shouldn't dwell on it. THis week is getting devoted to cleaning, homework and writing. Well I'll make a differnt post...