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I find myself yet entrapped by the grasp of societies responsibilities, like working as hard as possible and dealing with my family also known as the birmingham zoo. I so tired of dealing with everyones mood swings, like there the ones that had to give up smoking all of a sudden or something. Im being avoided by my connects, like straight up no shame style. Maybe its for the best...
I've found a ray of hope in the prospect of returning to Germany. I feel it is only there that I can relieve myself of the burden and strife that is the US. I need those sincere people back in my life/ those dear hearts and gentle people that made my experience abroad so worth it all.
Its wierd. I go through 2 years of American college, it took me 2 fucking years to realize how connected I still am to Germany and how important that experience was in molding the person I am today. You know the more I think about it/ to a certain extent if not more, I owe a lot to my time abroad. I had no real life before moving there and neither did I have true friendships either. germany and its people opened me to myself, showed me who I was as a person, gave me true lasting friendships and gave me the skills to develope those strong friendships later in life. I must say that my college experience at Sewanee would be extremely different(for the worst) if it had not had been for my time in Germany. so i need to get back there thats all.
I've found a ray of hope in the prospect of returning to Germany. I feel it is only there that I can relieve myself of the burden and strife that is the US. I need those sincere people back in my life/ those dear hearts and gentle people that made my experience abroad so worth it all.
Its wierd. I go through 2 years of American college, it took me 2 fucking years to realize how connected I still am to Germany and how important that experience was in molding the person I am today. You know the more I think about it/ to a certain extent if not more, I owe a lot to my time abroad. I had no real life before moving there and neither did I have true friendships either. germany and its people opened me to myself, showed me who I was as a person, gave me true lasting friendships and gave me the skills to develope those strong friendships later in life. I must say that my college experience at Sewanee would be extremely different(for the worst) if it had not had been for my time in Germany. so i need to get back there thats all.