happy(?) hellidays
i really fucking hate this time of year...
look, I'm no scrooge...i give to people when i have stuff to give...and i believe in family and all that....
in general, I'm a happy person...but right now...while everyone else is off with their families...being loved and loving all the same...i feel like shit...I've been alone all day, yeah my dads home...but like i said, I've been alone all day....in my room, in the dark...watching VH1 classic (the only redeeming part of today...lots of good music to take my mind off of it)
this is the time of year were everyone is supposed to feel like they mean something...yet i feel as little and insignificant as ever...I've been brooding and miserable...and theres no sign of it getting any better...
the one good thing was when i got to hang out with Megan last night into this morning...my highlight for xmas happened within the first two hours of the day...what the fuck is that??
right now...i hate everyone...almost as much as i hate myself.
i needed to vent...so i did...and no i don't feel any better
fuck off
look, I'm no scrooge...i give to people when i have stuff to give...and i believe in family and all that....
in general, I'm a happy person...but right now...while everyone else is off with their families...being loved and loving all the same...i feel like shit...I've been alone all day, yeah my dads home...but like i said, I've been alone all day....in my room, in the dark...watching VH1 classic (the only redeeming part of today...lots of good music to take my mind off of it)
this is the time of year were everyone is supposed to feel like they mean something...yet i feel as little and insignificant as ever...I've been brooding and miserable...and theres no sign of it getting any better...
the one good thing was when i got to hang out with Megan last night into this morning...my highlight for xmas happened within the first two hours of the day...what the fuck is that??
right now...i hate everyone...almost as much as i hate myself.
i needed to vent...so i did...and no i don't feel any better
fuck off