Seven Years
of trying, trying, trying to get over Ianto dying. Slowly weeding out any fan fiction with canon-compliant story lines, Jack mourning, Jack remembering in the future. Can't go there. Can only read happy endings. I've not been this devastated when actual real-life people I've known have died. What is wrong with me? Fortunately, there is a lot, I mean a lot, of positive outcome, happy Jack and Ianto, alien-fighting while having a good life together fan fic. Thank you, authors. I remember playing 'Dead Summer' by Unblest over and over and over til I had to force myself to stop listening. Never been so immersed in misery and sadness. Much better now, thank goodness, but still reading Janto fan fic every single day. I don't even worry if I'm crazy anymore. I am just so grateful to fan fic authors. 