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exceedinglife

To Vayne, Roxis and Isolde-sensei

Oct 12, 2009 08:58

Okay, I found the reference I was talking about yesterday. It's in the book Rites and Pacts of the Alchemists-- I knew I'd read something like this a while back, we read it for freshman classes ( Read more... )

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thewishfire October 12 2009, 16:16:22 UTC

I said... I said I'd never do that again....

But... in case Roxis and Isolde-sensei ever did think it was worth it.... Does it have to be the alchemist, specifically, who goes?

exceedinglife October 12 2009, 16:16:55 UTC

What do you mean, Vayne...?

thewishfire October 12 2009, 16:18:45 UTC

Well... if we ever did try it.... I'd want to be the one who went. Not them.

It would hurt us all, just the same, but... at least they could stay at home, and be safe. I'm stronger than they are... I wouldn't want to send them out into that sort of danger, on top of putting them through the pain....

exceedinglife October 12 2009, 16:25:15 UTC

...Well, the books don't talk about a Mana ever doing it. But it seems to be the distance that matters, really-- the spiritual quest was more of a side thing, something to aim for so that they'd keep their focus. I... guess it might work the same....

Would you like me to do more research?

thewishfire October 12 2009, 16:25:52 UTC

...Just in case.

Thank you....

exceedinglife October 12 2009, 16:28:37 UTC

Couldn't you... just wish for it to not hurt?

thewishfire October 12 2009, 16:32:53 UTC

I thought of that... but... I don't feel like it would work.... The whole reason the ordeal makes Mana and alchemists able to be apart is that their bond has been tested, right? Because they went through that pain.... And I think there are some things you can't just make painless, because... there are some things that matter too much. Like the pain of separation from magic... to pretend that doesn't exist, when it happens, is to create a lie... a superficial untruth on which nothing real can be based.

It hurts when an alchemist and their Mana are parted because they need to be together.... That... that's a law of life.... I don't think I can wish that away, or that I should even try. I know Isolde-sensei was worried that I'd be able to just change the rules of the universe, but I don't think I can....

exceedinglife October 12 2009, 16:48:11 UTC

I see.... It must be really kind of interesting, knowing what you can and can't do with wishes. It must really give you this amazing insight into how the world works.... It would be so incredible to have access to that kind of knowledge.

thewishfire October 12 2009, 17:28:04 UTC

Yeah... it's kind of hard to explain how I feel about it. It's not like I think some force would try to stop me if I wished that way... it's more like I would try to stop me. I feel like I don't wish to do these things... and while that may not sound like a very strong emotion... to me, it's everything. It's like, if I just don't think it's a good idea... then I can't possibly wish.... It has to be a wholehearted wish, with nothing in the way....

pillarofruin October 12 2009, 16:32:54 UTC

I'd be surprised if that worked. Separation from a Mana hurts because of the closeness. It's more like the flipside of a positive trait than a problem that stands alone. He'd probably have to wish that we had been through an ordeal like that... But, then, we know so little about the extent of his powers that it's hard to say.

thewishfire October 12 2009, 16:42:00 UTC

...So what do you think, sensei?

Roxis doesn't seem too keen... and... if it were with both of you, then it'd have to be with everyone's consent.... But I guess I'm just curious... about whether you think we could do it. For everyone's sake....

pillarofruin October 13 2009, 03:09:38 UTC

I don't want to rule out the possibility, but right now... I'm a little overwhelmed by all of this. Just the idea of your going away is hard to process at the moment. I need some time before I can give it serious thought...

And even a soundproof room wouldn't have shut out that.

thewishfire October 13 2009, 03:15:59 UTC

I understand, sensei. These past few days have been especially hard on you....

And... it's really not like I find the thought an easy one, either... I just... I want to make things okay for everyone.

[comment screened to Isolde-sensei only] thewishfire October 13 2009, 03:19:26 UTC

Also, I'm... sorry about before. Ehehe. I kind of figured you were going to know... and... I think even if we do do something to help us all move about more freely... that's probably not going to change, is it. I'm your Mana... you can feel how I feel, just as I can feel how you feel.

I... I hope it's okay.... Because, I mean, it's not going to go away, and things....

[comment screened to Vayne only] pillarofruin October 13 2009, 03:24:17 UTC

I do feel how you feel, yes... The awkward part is how much I enjoyed it. I'm not quite sure whether to hum to myself and try to ignore it, or to lie back and relish the waves of joy and fulfilment washing over me...

[comment screened to Isolde-sensei only] thewishfire October 13 2009, 03:27:25 UTC

I think it's okay... I mean... it's meant to be nice, right...? So isn't it better if more people get something out of it than if they don't.... And it's not like I want to deny you pleasure, in particular....

I'm not sure how Roxis feels about it, but he does seem to have guessed that it'd be like that, too, so... I think it can be okay....

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