May 24, 2007 01:14
maybe we're better off this way...
i'm tired. so tired.
you can't go back in time. you had your chance to be mad, but you chose to act like things were cool & that everything was okay... when in reality, our world was turned upside down. now, 2 months later, you decide to get upset. wtf. that makes no sense.
okay. i get it. i messed up. people screw up. i'm young. how the fuck do i know what love is? why isn't it okay that i gave into temptation? i mean, aren't we supposed to learn from mistakes? without mistakes, life would be boring. i'm not saying that it's okay to hurt other people... but if i can sit here, & be mature, & sincerely apologize, & be understanding to your feelings... then why can't you move past it?
you expected me to be perfect. & i can tell you right now that no one -- including the woman you marry -- will be perfect. it's time to accept that & start making room for mistakes & screw-ups.
"If I have gained anything over these months, it is the knowledge there is no starting over -- only living with the mistakes you've made. But then, Caleb taught me long ago you can't bulid anything without some sort of foundation. Maybe we learn to live our lives by understanding, firsthand, how not to live them." -- Perfect Match by Jodi Picoult