only time will help.

[exboi]

I have come to realize. that things happened to me for a reason. whether it was to teach me that love comes before all. or to show me how much love im capable of giving. or whatever. Maybe Danny and i werent meant to be together, but whatever those 4 month were.. they were something. I really do feel different because of it. July 5th was a new beginning. to whatever is ahead of me. I'm really anxious for the future. to see how i change, see how i grow into someone i dont expect. I know it'll be for the good. I hope. the past four months were really significant for me. and how could i change if i still hold onto what i had. the only thing i can do. is just accept it. be happy for what it was. keep the memory's. and move on..... ever so often rethink the wonderful times. but for the most part, let it go. I want to be able to be his friend, but im not sure if i can do that right now. i hope i can do it at all. ever. right now im still a little confused and foggy. but way better than the past few days. and i know only time will help.

I can now listen to the songs i wrote without crying. :)

Lets hope next week theres even more improvement.