Something I have come to realize.
Tonight i went to the club with her. everything went perfectly fine but she lost my keys. sure it seems harmless. but a lot of things add up. i wouldnt be so mad if she just owned up to what she does. if she accepted responsibilites for what she does.
lets flash back to tucson a week or so ago. she got really drunk and got all crazy with me and other friends. yelling and going balistic as if we were the crazy drunk ones. she always thinks she is "right" or "never does anything wrong". and it really gets to me sometimes. i always forget how much it bugs me, because i love her so much. and i feel sometimes, like she will change. but i suppose she wont change. she will always be selfish, and always think of herself first. always be somewhat of a smooch. and it kills me. because i try to love her so much.
i do nice things, like pay her way into the club,buy the alchohol, give her a place to stay when she comes down, and have food for her to eat. lots of poeple would have to get a hotel, and pay thier way in to the club, and buy thier own drinks. but i do so much. and she gives too little.
i guess it is partly my fault. for always giving in. the one to always stick up for her. to speak so highly about her to people.
i just wish sometimes... she would realize it. realize it is her and say "sorry" for the things she does.
see that you dont always be "right" and that its okay to do things wrong. just own up to them.
lets flash back to tucson a week or so ago. she got really drunk and got all crazy with me and other friends. yelling and going balistic as if we were the crazy drunk ones. she always thinks she is "right" or "never does anything wrong". and it really gets to me sometimes. i always forget how much it bugs me, because i love her so much. and i feel sometimes, like she will change. but i suppose she wont change. she will always be selfish, and always think of herself first. always be somewhat of a smooch. and it kills me. because i try to love her so much.
i do nice things, like pay her way into the club,buy the alchohol, give her a place to stay when she comes down, and have food for her to eat. lots of poeple would have to get a hotel, and pay thier way in to the club, and buy thier own drinks. but i do so much. and she gives too little.
i guess it is partly my fault. for always giving in. the one to always stick up for her. to speak so highly about her to people.
i just wish sometimes... she would realize it. realize it is her and say "sorry" for the things she does.
see that you dont always be "right" and that its okay to do things wrong. just own up to them.