SERE: Survival, Evasion, Resistance, Escape
it's just one of those days that makes you wanna just shut down, give up, and curl into a ball to try and get rid of everyone in your world.
the kind of day that in the end you wish you had a giant cliff or skyscraper you could stand atop and just scream at the world around you.
i can say i had that day today, its more than fair share of ups and downs, but more frequently the latter. where it seems you've been stuck in a drain and forced to run for cover from everyone trying to shit on you. where in the end you're so exhausted you want to collapse and you wonder how everyone else does it. how everyone before you, even those now all around you, even the ones causing all this shit survive. you can realize that the basic purest nature of humans is that of survival. we were made to suck it up. we were made to take a hit and keep going. we were made to keep going.
in the end, survival and ourselves is all we have. those who cant take it just clock out. those who can, they are the ones with the futures the ones with the will and stamina to follow somethin through.
yeah, today sucked major balls and things happened that totally change everything for the rest of high school just as predicted by that bad dream i had once, but hey, i keep sayin it but i gotta adhere to it more, the only time you can think about quitting is when you're done and we gotta make the best of it, improvise, adapt to the environment, darwin, shit happens, i-ching, whatever man, we gotta roll with it.
so fine, i'll bitch these projects, tests, and stresses up the ass, as for the other affecting factors, like the failed CIS op that totally backfired because it came too little too late and various other major fuckups not even on my behalf, what can we do except survive it, suck it up, adapt, and drive on.
it's one of those days, yes, but it's also one of those chances to prove our survival.