thought-trap
I am updating to say that I'm stuck in a weird state of mind. Hopefully trapping it on the page will make some sense out of it?
I'm not bored. I have lots of things I could be doing. But I'm not, and the thought of making a choice makes me feel quite unnerved; panicky even. I think it's the result of being off for a week, not having structure and still not feeling one hundred per cent up to doing much.
Just thinking about being active today makes the ache in my bones start to twitch to life again.
It's not exactly anything, this emotion: it's got some of flavour of anxiety (my old friend), but it's more like tiredness if you look at it from the right angle, but then it leaps and vanishes. It's being stuck between ill and well, sitting in the middle, waiting without acting.
Zombie-brain: good thing my plan for this evening involves a vampire film.
I'm not bored. I have lots of things I could be doing. But I'm not, and the thought of making a choice makes me feel quite unnerved; panicky even. I think it's the result of being off for a week, not having structure and still not feeling one hundred per cent up to doing much.
Just thinking about being active today makes the ache in my bones start to twitch to life again.
It's not exactly anything, this emotion: it's got some of flavour of anxiety (my old friend), but it's more like tiredness if you look at it from the right angle, but then it leaps and vanishes. It's being stuck between ill and well, sitting in the middle, waiting without acting.
Zombie-brain: good thing my plan for this evening involves a vampire film.