the martyr is: kicking herself
why must you always do things the hard way? why must you be so indecisive and wishy-washy at the expense of others' emotions?
you dirty, treacherous whore, why can't you leave them well enough alone? can't you realize that you need your own time? so as to NOT do what you have JUST NOW done to two innocents, whose only crime was being interested, and possibly loving you?
why do you have to sit there and hope for the promises long left broken by a foolish boy who cannot own up to being a man? better yet, why do you think there is still a chance for you to reclaim your supposed templar, when it is clear that the only purpose you serve for him is sexual release? Why do you think it's worth investing the time and energy and effort and emotion into that which does not repay the favor? and why, then, do you abuse and neglect that which freely gives you the love you wished for, and, according to your nearest far off counsel, deserve?
Because you're a selfish, insipid, shallow brat. And you cannot grow as a person beyond this petty bullshit. You cannot accept that you can't have your cake and eat it, too. You have to have it all, and you don't care who you step on to get it all. You can't just be patient and try to tough it out on your own, instead you insist on bouncing from rebound to rebound in the hopes that in those moments of intimacy you can find what you thought was love, and instead of looking within yourself for such answers, you seek gratification instantly from others. You suck them dry, bleed them pale, and then toss them away when the slightest hint of another chance with your 'saint' comes your way.
You are a psychic vampire of the worst sort, because you sap them of their emotions as well.
you disgust me.
- your conscience
you dirty, treacherous whore, why can't you leave them well enough alone? can't you realize that you need your own time? so as to NOT do what you have JUST NOW done to two innocents, whose only crime was being interested, and possibly loving you?
why do you have to sit there and hope for the promises long left broken by a foolish boy who cannot own up to being a man? better yet, why do you think there is still a chance for you to reclaim your supposed templar, when it is clear that the only purpose you serve for him is sexual release? Why do you think it's worth investing the time and energy and effort and emotion into that which does not repay the favor? and why, then, do you abuse and neglect that which freely gives you the love you wished for, and, according to your nearest far off counsel, deserve?
Because you're a selfish, insipid, shallow brat. And you cannot grow as a person beyond this petty bullshit. You cannot accept that you can't have your cake and eat it, too. You have to have it all, and you don't care who you step on to get it all. You can't just be patient and try to tough it out on your own, instead you insist on bouncing from rebound to rebound in the hopes that in those moments of intimacy you can find what you thought was love, and instead of looking within yourself for such answers, you seek gratification instantly from others. You suck them dry, bleed them pale, and then toss them away when the slightest hint of another chance with your 'saint' comes your way.
You are a psychic vampire of the worst sort, because you sap them of their emotions as well.
you disgust me.
- your conscience