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i dont think that i have ever felt so loved by anyone in my entire life.
someone so willing to bend over backwards for me.
put up with all of my bullshit. wow.
plus someone i feel completely the same about.
sometimes i find it hard to comprehend.
he just played me this country song that reminds him of us.
and it was completely us. hah.
i wonder sometimes if what we talk about will actually happen.
i think i would be heart broken if it didnt.
i know that i can ramble on for ever i have so much going through my head.
i go back to school in a week exatly. i dont feel like i belong going back there.
after being home for a month school feels foreign again.
its such a weird feeling, it feels like a completely different life i have.
i dont want to go back.
i know i will not regret staying home next year there are so many reasons i tell myself i will like being home.
i have made no lasting friendships at school other than bonding closer with friends from home. i have no want wish or desire to make these bonds in truth.
i spend my weekdays thinking about coming home on the weekends.
i come home almost every weekend as is.
i can work here.
i dont know what i want to major in anymore and antthro was really the deciding factor on why i went to isu.
everyone i talk to a deep level is at home. everyone i want to hang out with talk with cuddle with sit in silence with, is at home.
there are some cons although, the whole not getting along with my family business. but that can be overcame. and my dad thinking im throwing my future away. im not. i will miss isu a lot. but the good will outweigh the bad here. i can visit friends when i miss it. heh.
i day dream about the future so much. sometimes i think im crazy.
i think about a day from now, a week, a month, a year, 5 years, more than that, its crazy.
i cant wait for my future to unfold in front of me. its exciting.
i have so many hopes and aspirations and dreams.
only time will tell.
someone so willing to bend over backwards for me.
put up with all of my bullshit. wow.
plus someone i feel completely the same about.
sometimes i find it hard to comprehend.
he just played me this country song that reminds him of us.
and it was completely us. hah.
i wonder sometimes if what we talk about will actually happen.
i think i would be heart broken if it didnt.
i know that i can ramble on for ever i have so much going through my head.
i go back to school in a week exatly. i dont feel like i belong going back there.
after being home for a month school feels foreign again.
its such a weird feeling, it feels like a completely different life i have.
i dont want to go back.
i know i will not regret staying home next year there are so many reasons i tell myself i will like being home.
i have made no lasting friendships at school other than bonding closer with friends from home. i have no want wish or desire to make these bonds in truth.
i spend my weekdays thinking about coming home on the weekends.
i come home almost every weekend as is.
i can work here.
i dont know what i want to major in anymore and antthro was really the deciding factor on why i went to isu.
everyone i talk to a deep level is at home. everyone i want to hang out with talk with cuddle with sit in silence with, is at home.
there are some cons although, the whole not getting along with my family business. but that can be overcame. and my dad thinking im throwing my future away. im not. i will miss isu a lot. but the good will outweigh the bad here. i can visit friends when i miss it. heh.
i day dream about the future so much. sometimes i think im crazy.
i think about a day from now, a week, a month, a year, 5 years, more than that, its crazy.
i cant wait for my future to unfold in front of me. its exciting.
i have so many hopes and aspirations and dreams.
only time will tell.